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2007-02-07T22:02:00.000+08:00

hehe .last day of school .pretty fun .as usual there was much laughter .well .will miss them .and i m admitting tomorrow .and the date is the day after .and saturday i will be missing a 5 hour dance session .oh wells .haha .thanks many to those who wished me .i will take care and come out hotter and prettier and sexier .haha

see you all in two weeks time .and i will be back soon to move out of this lousy blog .haha .hurray to LJ :)

byeeeeeee

2007-02-06T21:59:00.000+08:00

hehe .my lovely cousins are at my house .making a riot in my room .and so i decided to take some pictures of them.

andrea

nicholas

nicholas

nick is so cute .he was like hugging my legs and running about my room before allowing me to take the picture .haha .ohhhhhhhhh

and i cant go for the movie no more .cos we got switched to fri .how irritating and no one in the right mind would be willing to change with me for tomorrow at such a late notice .oh wells .i just got cheated of 6 bucks i guess :(

haha .i m going to bed .tomorrow is the late day .haha .anticipation and a twinge of nonstalgic. but i will survive .hehe .byeeeeeeeeee

2007-02-05T22:44:00.000+08:00

i m leaving in three more days and no one in my class knows about it except for a few .i m with them for so long yet they dont know .how ironic

i m so going to fail all my tests cos i cant understand a single shit on my notes .pretty weird considering i have been staring at them for nearly a year now

blogspot is so screwed up .it is time for the move .soon

i collected my pay and now i m $360 richer :)

i m done here .bye

2007-02-02T20:34:00.000+08:00

today was a pretty unlucky day .blood donation was a failure .causing me to have three pricks .all of which are bruising and have clots .so i was damn tired during dance .but i m well and hearty now .so yar .tired out and achy .on the ride back to school .i asked myself why am i putting myself through all these pain and torture .i really dont know .was tearing on the train .and when i got home .maybe it is for the sake of beauty .i guess .

today was one of those days that i felt like quitting dance .i dont know why .and i think i was stupid enough to return for dance .my conscience was pricking at me for missing last week .so i went ahead and totally regretted it .though i did not do much .i was drained of energy and motivation .all i could think of was home .screw it la .i really think i dont deserve to have DSA nor be in dance .honestly .i think i suck .i m such a slow learner .

but GP was quite fun .we had movie review .based on the movie we saw yesterday .it was GATTACA .damn nice can .ethan hawke is just so handsome .and jude law too .but that is reserved for dinie .i m still very comfortable and happy with my ethan hawke .some stuff i learnt today

GATTACA is a DNA sequence
Vincent means conquering
Jerome means genome
Anton means worthy of my father's name and praise

The very phrase i liked in the movie was

"Consider God's handiwork; who can straighten what he has made crooked" Ecclesiastes 7:13

the entire movie was so sci-fic .but it was so nice .i m so going to get the dvd .and swoon over more of ethan hawke and understand the movie better :)

the other half of the class had to think up of codes for love .haha .and here are some phrases the darlings girls .yee wei and darylyn thought of :

love is the anitdote to a broken heart
love is the anitdote to a hungry stomach
love is like a bubble bath, full of hopes to be dashed
love is in the air, just like oxygen
love is a like virus, it can attack anytime
love is like a virus, it spreads
love is just like fats, it keeps you warm

haha .guys. you can use it to humor your girlfriend or something k .vday is coming .it is the one time i might hate and love in the entire year .remember in stc .it was like a festival where everyone exchange presents .i used to spend like weeks making the presents .haha .

ok .going off already .byeeee folks

2007-01-31T10:33:00.000+08:00

i know i m supposed to do my essay .but the distractions around proved to be too hard to ignore .so i went blog-hopping .and did i found anything humorous or laughable about .maybe .

it just kinda of shocks me to see how people feed on scandals .it is rather depressing .i mean it is their r/s .what right have you to be poking you noses into their affairs when you yourself arent any better .it bitters my heart to see such things happening .but then life i nschool is like that . i mean i have been one of the guilty culprits .gossiping about people .but then i had a taste of my own medicine last .leaving me really hurt .and angered at myself .at the own world .till the point i felt like walking out of school .leaving this place that had too many heartaches and terror .but fate interevenes .and there were those who stood by me and i was grateful for that .nowadays .i just listen .and give my comments where necessary on platforms common to all of us .but it is never enough .you just wonder why are there people like that .they are like vermins in our society .but yet .everyone wants to be friends with them .how ironic isnt it .and there are people who would do anything to achieve their goals .and then you wonder again .who are they to criticise people when they are just like a pile of dung that does not deserve any respect .hurt .these people do not know what hurt really tastes like .sometimes you see them in school .and all you wanna do is to wlak up to them .give them one tight slap to make them wake up .

then there were others who talk about love. bloody hell .be grateful that you people had happy relationships while others dont .or never ever had one at all .stop acting like a pathetic idiot .garnering sympathy .when you dont deserve any .any one who is affected by love. is one that is weak .i guess .and perhaps venting your frustrations at others who are totally innocent .might make you feel a bit better but then those who are getting the brunt are those who will feel perturbed and bewildered .if you really want to be happy .start caring for those around you .perhaps there will be time for you to move on .carry on .there are those who are concerened .place your love in them .and you will be rewarded .stop being a sissy .staying in one spot. stop being and idiot .holdign on to the past .stop being crazy .burying yourself in work .and that is all i have to say.

betrayal .some talk .hello .you have absolutely no right to say anything .cos you have hurt others .making us feel insignificant .your face is one that is pretty .but ugly on the inside. popularity never hurts anyone .but then your actions and your words are like a knife .slicing through people mindds. things might have happened a long time ago but then .if given a chance .who doesnt want to forgive and forget .all i want to say is that perhaps you should never have started a conflict .a long time doesnt mean that wounds will be healed .memories will be forgotten .they wont be gone just as easily as the wind .these memories will be etched forever in us .dont you forget .and if you plan to carry on being a bitch. carry on and garner the displeasure of others .cos i can only plainly say .I HATE YOU .

and you guys noticed i never use any names. if you think it is you then too bad .maybe it is .maybe it is not .do not accused me if you dont have any evidence .there are billions of people in this world .i can be talking about just anybody .and i better get back to my essay that has only three words on it .bye

2007-01-29T21:30:00.000+08:00

sunday :

completed CNY shopping alone .so was lugging qutie a couple of bags across town in 2 hrs .which was tiring .esp since i was in heels .and this year .it is back to the basics .with classic shirts .denim skirts .high heels (a major component) .and accessories accessories and more accessories .less on the necklaces .more on the bracelets :)

here are some of my buys:

nue heels which was bought at $30+ after discount from my vouchers

it is much higher than it looks . 2.5" i guess

guess pumps .last pair in my size. i walked like everywhere to find it

it makes my legs look slim :)

monday:

long day + ms ye's duh's + mrs chan super cold jokes + sunny weather =
super boring day

loads of nice shots taken during PE ..thanks to the sun .with shadows and super brightness .niceeeeee .i think i have what it takes to be a photographer sia .haah.

poor dinie was a sight with her sinus .reminded me of what happens at night to me .endless sneezing and block noses .take care k .and bryan apply more yoko yoko to your neck .i bring salonpas for you tomorrow .kt .please take care o your foot .anuaar .take care .and hope you are feeling better .and many many many more .thanks to zhang yun for carrying my bag while we were walking home .you are so man .haha

then i came up with a list of things to do while i will be on leave .

1. set up gmail account (time to change)
2. set up livejournal account and decorate it (cow .i m finally getting to it .must help me k )
3. watch more hk serials
4. do tuts ??????
5. study ???????
6. watch movies alone .protege .babel and pan's labrynith are top on the list

hahaha . keep myself pre-occupied .andi will forget the pain hopefully .wheeeee .okay .better get back to work .byeeeeeeeee

2007-01-26T20:34:00.000+08:00

hello folks .did you guys missed me in school today .haha .

went for the pre-admission test today .it was alright .i just have some bruising at my injection area .i took damn long to donate blood though .an hour plus to donate one unit .i almost died .it was pretty painful .but i m okay .but the bruise makes my arm rather numb .

and mommy got me something .and there is no use guessing .it is what i have been saying for the past few weeks .but you all wont get to see it .cos my bag hasnt break yet .and i dont want to be accused to copying .later amanda come after me .haha .kidding la .i will just bring it out occasionally till my bag breaks .and my godpa promised to get me the paddington bag .once i recover .cant wait .it is lovessss .i think i m getting too many bags

S20 .the photos are up .sorry for the delay .hutterfly was not co-operating with me last night .but i have done all the rotation .with the exception of the captions .those who dont know how to get to the webpage .ask .the others yar .

ok .i think i better get started on my essay and stop playing dynomite which is so addictive .byeeeeeeeeeeee

2007-01-23T21:29:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY !!!!!!!!

so today was filled with:

-weixuan's cam-whoring on my cam
-loads of chinese words
-finding out about couples in our class
-eating desserts
-yee wei pinching david
-laughter
-FOOD

it was just so fun .everyday should be an outing man .haha .kidding .well .we celebrated daddy bday with cakes .and noodles .and presents .i got him a cologne .since he always steal my gucci one .

here are some photos of our rather crazy family:

daddy and mommy

daddy with his awfully chocolate cake

we two and him (my dimple looks wrong here)

with his precious baby

thats all .S20 .pictures are in my links under 'piccas'

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2007-01-20T22:17:00.000+08:00

say hi to

bob-it resides on my left elbow

robert -it resides on my left feet

bobby -it resides on my right thigh

tom -it resides on my right knee

harry -it resides on my left knee

dick -it resides on my right elbow

and my phone is mad .it hanged on me twice yesterday .then cannot detect my sim card .then it suddenly switched off .tell me i m not jinxed this week .daddy says can change .but all the phones on promotion are like shit .i really think the moto(red) looks hot .but i m so loyal .i will stick to using samsung .i guess

saw the NUM bag today .the one like amanda's but with more buckles .i really want to get that .but i think amanda will kill me .cos i want the brown .cos it is the only nice colour .white is sure to get dirty with me .black is so dull and i have a black bag already .should i or should i not ?????

rushing chem work now .i still wanna play games .and i just had the most satisfying dinner .alaskan king crab + abalone + many other things .just makes the pig in me feel happy :)

okayyyyyy .time for work .byeeeeeeeeeee

2007-01-19T13:11:00.000+08:00

OMG .

i just read some of the most unbelievable things .i cant believe my eyes .damn .....

in the comp lab with the class and laughing at them playing a game .cos weixuan was thrashing bryan .and it is absolutely hilarious :) these people really do make my day .and everyone noticed i cried last night .was it so obvious ?????

thanks many to daddy .i really do like him though he can be quite annoying at times .

dance later .and i m cheering up already .hahahah .byeeeeee

2007-01-18T20:49:00.000+08:00

i really dont understand .i m fucking angry and fucking sad and damn fucking frustrated .

ever since my brother started going to my mom's company to work .my mom is always so busy taking care of him .even at night she watch tv with him .and hardly spends the time with me .i see my mom .for less than 5h a day .saturday i want to go out with her .she is always not free .no that i dont understand she has to work .but she always breaks her promises to me .what bag .what shoe .what go out for lunch .she forgets .all she do is to nag about my studies .does she thinks i m not trying hard enough .does she undestand how tough it is for me .i really try so hard. that i feel pain .in my heart .when i pass my test .she say not good .when i get B .she say not good .why cannot get A .i know she cares about me .she wants me to get good result .i also want .but i also want her .when i sick for the past few weeks .she hardly bothered .except to bring me to the doctor .and it was because she had to see the doctor too .if not .it would have been my dad who bring me there .she keep saying so many things .she said i said she changed .to me .she is still the same mummy i like .and cherish .i keep buying littel trinkets for her .cos i know she likes them .but then she will just chuck them aside .and hardly use them .she doesnt know .how hard it was for me to save up that paltry amount of money to please her .like just now .i wanted to eat dumplings .so i ate quite a lot .i know i wasnt supposed to do that .but then if i dont eat now .i cannot them till 6 months later .i want to eat now .spend time to remember how each food taste like .bitter sweet sour spicy .but she scolded me .and she did not want to hear out my reason .she kept saying i was throwing a tantrum cos she did not watch tv with me .is it my fault i want the whole family to sit down and watch tv together .and we can chat about stuff .then she drags in about me buying so many clothes .esp tees .says i never wear them .it is true i hardly wear them .but it is not my fault .i bought them with my money like 1-2 years ago .i cant bear to give them away and i do still wear them every now and then .and then my heels .she kept insisting i hardly wear them .but why .cos she wont allow me to when we go out .i bought those stuff .as a form of reward to myself .how can she donate them as and when she like .just cos it was not bought with her money .it takes me months on cutting down on food .spending a mere requirement of 2 bucks per day .even my class tee money .i paid out of my own pocket .and that is a week allowance for me .i dont understand

as for my brother .he thinks i whine to get stuff .but it is my characteristic .it is part of me .i cant help it .like yesterday .we were eating and i could not take egg .cos i had it in the afternoon .and i was telling my dad .he fucking hell just took the egg .and ate it .all the while staring at me .and in me .i was cursing him .and under the table i was pointing my middle finger .i know i have to cut down on whining .i have been .but it is hard .and now he knows my mom dote on him more. he is always .bagering the conversation .i had forgotten the last time my mom and i talked .i have only remembered talking to my dad about school stuff .what happened in school .who is who .it is all my dad .and i can never forgive him for blaming me about ruining his chances of a good future .what is so fucking hell shameful about poly .you fucking knncb .and if you can stand your fucking bitch of a gf whine .and you can stand your eye candy whine .then why cant you fucking hell tolerate your sister's .and it is not like i see you 24/7 .and whine to you everyday .

it is now cold war .i have been typing this and never do work .but i m going to sleep and forget all troubles .and it is raining .and flooded .this is such a sickening day

2007-01-17T23:20:00.000+08:00

How happy can a person be without love?

someone posted this question to me today .and this was my reply

' I will let you know the difference when i get into a relationship .perhaps .5 years down the road or something :)'

well .really .dont ask me senseless question .esp ones where i m pretty blur about .and why everyone likes to ask me questions .i must be wearing a sign that says 'feel free to ask questions' .damn .i m not a wise one .you know .

any way .today was dance auditions .so fun .it meant that us seniors had a wee bit of slack time .even though we had to teach combis and stuff .and zaki had to make us teach the hiphop one .where i had no idea what all the counts were .mine were like all over the place .haha .then was talking with di and amanda and constance .more of di and amanda .haha .they are so interesting .and they think that we seniors are cute .ohhhhkayyyyy .haha .and i think the beauty about DSA is the friends that you make .are actually of a wider variety .and perhaps just that wee bit more vulgar .but they are those you know you can keep for life .

and back to the auditions .just would like to say a short congrats to those who made it for SYF .you guys are great .and good .and everything else. keep it up .and enjoy practices with us :) those who did not make it .dont give up .if you are aspiring to be a dancer .perserve .and press on .hope to see you at practices too :)

anyway .in case some of you were wondering .nothing idiotic happened to me today .i actually stayed relatively safe .dance was normal .with the usual gossip .and stuff .machiam fun now .i m actually looking forward to each dance sessions more more more .and biology is interesting .stem cells are so fascinating that dinie and i never fall asleep .and it is pretty common knowledge that all of us fall asleep pretty fast .but the vids are so interesting .esp the zebrafish one .it actually repairs its own heart .but planarian are the ugliest creatures i have ever seen .with self-renewal .but then why would anyone want two heads .i have no idea .and ms seetoh never come today .cos she is sick .hope you get better soon ms seetoh :)

haha .so many things to blog about .i just realise i m like venting my saturday anger on people .in the msgs i send .there are actually vulgarities .and when i speak to certain people .they were pretty shocked with my rather versatile language. but it will go off after a while .i m feeling pretty unease .haha .so if i suddenly go &*%*%*$&#%^#%&@ dont bother about me .

i learnt a new phrase from watching the mob sister .

'ting bu dai biao fu'

it basically means .listen does not equate to respect .well .lots to learn from this one phrase .haha .watching movies can actually be educational .my parents should stop nagging me about watching too much shows .and i think the channel 8 7pm drama is actually pretty nice .though a little too much of a similarity between the tvb one .but well it is still nice :)

i m going off now .byeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

current fascination- chloe paddington bag in grey .absolutely ravishing
current craze- some tvb drama about four leaf clover .absolutely filled with hunks and babes and loads of six packs .

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2007-01-15T22:27:00.000+08:00

i did the most retarded thing today .morning .i slipped and fell in the toilet .then when i came home .i tripped over a pile of cables and fell flat into a pile of water .kill me

to continue .i was walking home .and my estate decided it was time for upgrading .so current objective is electrical rewiring .it was quite digusting to see the piles of mud dug out .and they cordoned off the staircase to my house .so .i had to make a detour with many cables around and foreign workers. and being me .i had to take care of my new shoes. preventin them from getting wet .so i carefully avoided all water .and tiptoed through the cables .but as i was making my way .i tripped over a cable .and fell flat into a pile of water .and the workers were laughing as they helped me up .i was a pretty disgusting sight .well .how unlucky .then i went home .started feeling verry unwell . and puked and puked .

the diagnosis was gastric flu + viral infection .i feel terrible now .the medication is finally working its magic .and i m on mc tomorrow .so maties help me collect work k .

there is going to be no electricity tomorrow .wth .but i will survive .and i never knew porridge taste so bland .or my taste buds have mutated ??? i never believed that redhill soil was red till i saw the workers cleaning the soil .so that was how the name came about .how idiotic i m .

byeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

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2007-01-14T23:25:00.000+08:00

the stupidest thing i did today was to roll off my bed .in the morning .i figured that since i could hardly moved my body .much less get out of bed .i should just roll out and then get up with the help of the side table .but .i totally forgot i was not at my old house where my bed was on the floor and there was nothing beside it .i rolled out .hit the bed .then the floor .and then the glass door of my wardrobe .i was literally dying .and my dad thought the door dropped or something .rushed in .only to see me sprawled on floor .staring blankly at the ceiling .and it is not funny .cos it still hurts a lot .esp my butt .

went for tuition and church .could still feel i had a slight fever .plus i was coughing and sneezing .and tearing .i was so tired from the medication .and many many stuff .i feel like going to the docs for mc. but there is a test .and it is not ponning .it is called sick .my head hurts like shit .and my medication is already finished .can someone just give me a chopper to chop my nose off .i m totally grumpy and moody .and my feet looks like shit .damn .this is all not right .and i just realise i m not making sense of any of my sentences .but who cares .

if you guys see me tomorrow .steer clear of me .i might bite your head off .i dont want to offend anyone .if i m not in sch .you will know that i m half-dead in bed .okayyyy .so byeeeeee

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2007-01-13T21:42:00.000+08:00

DAMNIT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i m bloody hell as pissed and angry and what-so-ever .i would just like to say one thing or several things to YOU .fuck you .screw you .you asshole .you nbcb .you knncb .you bastard .you fucking cheesebun of a gaylord .you have a damn fucking attitude .if i was not so nice and if i was not a girl .and if there werent people around .i would have slap you .scold you .curse you .and perhaps trodded on you .and i m not appeased .but i would forgive you on this little hindsight .

okay .and as you all know i m not one who would curse and scream and do whatever i just did above .but once again .if i did not do that .i think i will get brain damage from the excess amount of heat from my anger .that is besides the point .but i m so tired and lazy about typing .the blister on my feet has burst .and is emitting pus like no tomorrow .yellow and gooey and oozing .not a pretty sight .and my bruises are like bad bad bad .the medicine is making my body go haywire .and i feel feverish again .still have to do homework and so many stuff .i m sickkkkk of school .and work .i feel overloaded .but i will finish my work .and i still love dance :)

okay bedtime .i m too pooped for anything .byeeeee

2007-01-12T22:49:00.000+08:00

the stupid cheesebun weather is preventing my hair from drying .it is still so wet .and the damn hair-dryer is in my mom's toilet .and she is sleeping and i cant use it .arrgh .it has been 3 hours since i washed my hair .but it is not drying .i dont want to get lice or whatever shit crap hair disease .so i will have to wait patiently for the stupid hair to dry .this is one of the reasons why i want to chop my locks off .lazinessss

haha .anyways .it is going to be a busy weekend .so much homework and tests for the next week .it is a miracle i will be able to survive .haha .anyways .i forgot what i wanted to say .hmmmmmmmmm .

yar and so today was CCA sign-up day .a record no of 76 people signed up for dance .that is like damn a lot .i remembered last year we only hit 40 plus .haha .and there are only like 8 guys out of 76 people .so retarded .whahah .then we had training and the juniors were talking .me and veeks heard some of it .and what can we say .the juniors already have scandals .aiyoh .and it is only the second week of sch .and they are already gossiping about the other couples tsk tsk .i dont remember us being like that .haha .wellss .youngsters nowadays have much more ability than us .tralalaala .funky stuff

and so today was yet another day that flew past me .with e ahvign a wee spot of fever .and feeling shilled to the bones .nothing much can topple me .unless a typhoon decides to hit Spore then perhaps i will be blown away to JB .cos i dont think gravity will be able to keep my feet firmly to the ground .and i think econs is starting to be better .cos i can finally understand what is being written on my notes .and so here is the totally tally of the things i need to do:

1. more bio tut
2. chem tut
3. maths tut
4. gp compre
5. study for maths and econs
6. get more sleep
7. remember SYF steps

wow .i m such a busy person .ok .going off now .byeeeeee

2007-01-11T20:01:00.000+08:00

so .todays chem test was a total failure .i swear .never ever do a test when you have taken medicine or dont take medicine when you know you are going to have a test .i was totally blanked out and drowsy .and it was super cold .so i was like fighting to stay awake .and everyone aksed me why i never pon today .haha .why .cos i m guai .whahahah .andthe weather was dreary today .dark .gloomy .wet and cold .and the tree outside my house is pounding against the window .my dad is afraid that the tree will topple onto our house .hahaha .he keeps looking at the window like every five minutes

and so dinie asked me a really wonderful question today .what makes me drag my heels to school everyday .i was like huh .i dunno know leh .then i really thought it through .besides getting to see cow .twin .the gang .and a selective portion of my classmates .nothing else .darn it .i really wonder is it worth it .then she asked me .what m i studying for .once again i was lost for words .cos .there is basically no incentive for me to study either .i m just muddling each school day .just one week .it felt like it has been months .and it is starting to get very dragging and tiring .seeing the same old canteen food makes me want to puke .seeing some digusting people makes me cringe inside .and even worse .the mountain of homework .yikes .and i m supposed to think through my econs tutorial and do it nicely .but now .i m jsut copying word for word from my notes .and i still dont get anything that is printed in my notes .my worksheet and on my paper .hmmmmm .

and so .papa came and fetch me from school today .cos he scared i faint and collapse in the rain .and he does not want to pay any more bills .and i managed to somehow convince him i need new school shoes and a laptop (to be specific .an iBook) .he is still quite unreluctant about the iBook .but he promised to go and check the functions out .and the price etc .but it is still a tad too ex for me .so we are waiting and hoping that it will drop down before my computer conked out on me .haha. and then i went home and psycho my mother into buying a new school bag for me .i want the NUM white and gold one .but so many people has beat me to it .i like white so much .but i dont want to be the same as others .so what bag should i get ????

so here is a quick summary of what i m getting:
1. new shoes
2. new bag
3. new pumps (the white guess ones)
4. and perhaps a new laptop

that will perhaps make me a happy girl .i m still waiting for my salary though .irritating shit-ass company .always ask me go briefing but no money = dont waste my time .if they still dont pay me .my dad says he want to sue them already .cos they are making use of free labour .i better get back to my tutorial .byeeeeee

2007-01-10T13:28:00.000+08:00

formal group picture

jayne.shoe.me

the hotties of the night

totally informal one

cruz .the cute one who stole all attn

some rather long awaited pics from the xmas party .so sorry it took this long . cos i had to take from people from all over the place .and there are still more .but with blogger only able to upload 10 .i rather not waste my time .

if you are wondering why am i home on a school day .it is because i m sick .and daddy dont let me go sch .lynette is sick too .cos i saw her at the clinic .haha .well must take the time to study for chem test .i have absolutely no confidence to pass .but oh wells .i shall give it a shot anyway .tralalalala .but really nucleophilic substitution and friedel crafts alkylation and free radical substiuition .are all almost the smae to me .but it is different .why do scientists love making fun of students like us .hmmmmm .

anyways .yesterday was such a great day .celebrating the gf's birthday .having fun .having fun .haha .i just adore the seafood platter .me and fahmy thought we could not finish our load. but in the end .it was so clean .that i can like see my face in it .haha .that is a form of exaggeration .then had bakerzinn oreo cheesecake .one of my favourite cakes .the rich cheese taste with the sweet oreo .heavenly .i think i can die eating it .haha .damn .there goes all the two kilos i lost .oh wells .after my surgery .i will be reduced to a sack of bones anyway .so i need not fret .just cut dow a little :)

i m so tired from eating the medicine .but still must study .so i should at least do something to give myself hope .byeeeeeee

2007-01-09T23:31:00.000+08:00

two ultra important announcements

1. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRIAN GIRLFRIEND !!!!!!!!!

you are officially 18. haha .so old already .haha .hope you had fun with us today yar :D

2. please visit the following website and post comments on my tagboard or something :)

http://spyinthestereo.livejournal.com

it is in my links .check it out .owners identifies are protected and they prefer to remain annoymous !!!!!

i will update more tomorrow if i feel better .byeeeeee

2007-01-08T22:33:00.000+08:00

I M PERMANENTLY EXEMPTED FROM PE !!!!!!

that means no NAPFA .no more running .and no need to train for cross country .wahlalalalalala .haha .dont be jealous la .haha .i m exempted from cheena too .thats leaves a lot of free time for moi .i like ....cos more time to do homework.

i still have to do these things:

1.maths holiday work
2. bio tut
3. econs tut
4. study for chem + maths + econs test
5. read gp handout

and it is only the first day of the second week .and i m dying .todays weather was so sunny .making me want to sleep cos the day was just too long for my liking .and i was sufferign from mnday blues .where i was moody and grumpy and extremely grouchy .which all adds up to endless whining from me .and even though i have so much things to do and i m still blogging .why .i dont know .my venting outlet i guess. i m changing to lj soon .so watch this space for any changes .most likely in march

must do work already .so byebyeeeeee

2007-01-07T22:57:00.000+08:00

havent been updating .sorry .homework + dance + the time of the month is giving me a headache .and it is only the first week.

the time of the month is really killing me .i dont know whether it is because of the iron pills i m taking .or what .but the pain was so pain .i could barely walk. had to drag myself for tuition .hope it will not be so bad tomorrow an i havent drank cold stuff as yet .PAIN !!!!!!

haha .well .really tired out and burnt out .and still havent to study for the upcoming tests .i think i m pretty screwed .but yar i m prepared .i mean i m almost not going to school next month .so well too bad .haha .i m already prepared to fail my BT1 .so yar .haha .that is my life for now .tralalala

tuesday is girlfriend bday .but not sure whether i want to go yet .cos i scared end late and cannot wake up the next day .hopefully dad and mom will let me go .and i m giving him a card .that has loads of words from me inside .hope he wont die reading it .to go or not to go .arrgh .i cant make up my mind !!!!!

wells .dont care .i want to sleep .there is school tomorrow .blah .boring ................ byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

2007-01-04T22:03:00.000+08:00

the second day of school has just flown past .what a boring day it was .lessons started like prim and proper at 12.30 .wasting 4.5 hrs of my life in school with the exception of PE .which only lasted 20mins (more on this later) .when i could have been at home sleeping and catching up on some of my work .blardy hell .me and dinie were discussing the possibilities of us coming to school every thursday at 12.30 .whaha .i mean .i m going to go on permanent MC soon .this is just so going to waste my time .and i end at 4.30 .wah .i can sleep all i want before making an appearance in school .i will be more awake and able to listen properly .and my dad can bring me go eat lunch instead of the cafe everyday .which is b to the g .BORING .i can save money somemore .damnit .what a lousy timetable .and i thought it was a good one .till people started slotting extra lessons

well .had PE .and we did not even have to change .cause we took ht and wt .amazingly .i did not put on any weight .rather i dropped 2kg from the previous term .and managed to grow one more cm .i m amazed .and looking at my rather unhealthy holiday diet .and my last week .it is a miracle that has happened .i think my metabolism in overdrive or something .haha .and everyone just cant seem to stop touching my hair .is there a magnet in my hair that attracts hands ??? not like i dont like people to touch my hair .it just gets wee bit irritating .

one more day till the weekend and i m looking forward to it .despite the fact i have to study for chem test next week .but oh wells. i m looking forward to the late mornings .heh .well .should go and do my maths .and perhaps .study a little bit more. and did i mention i love my new GP tutor .i managed not to sleep in her class .and she is so motherly which totally makes up for her loss in volume .haha .i think that i might have a bit of hope in getting a B for GP .waiting for chinese results and PW .is just making me nervous .and i hope to get good grades to pull my points up :D

ok .byeeeeeeeeee

P.S cow .missing you like shit .see you tomorrow !!!!!!and you know i love you .haha

2007-01-04T11:37:00.000+08:00

in the computer lab .playing with the computers .and perhaps shopping just that little .haha .sorry .but cannot help it lol .haha .teh interent is much faster here despite the fact my house one is at a speed of 6mbps .but that cannot satisfy me when i enjoyed like almost 100mbps speed in taiwan .haha .it is just reminding me how much i miss that country .when to continue

first day of school yesterday. comments .feelings .not much actually .i was pretty numbed the entire day. continuing my existence in a daze .i felt like if the wind blows . i can disappear like a puff of smoke .the class is much better now .everything seems to be bigger .due to the lack in population .it is scary . i m missing my folks outside. i kept looking at the clock .telling myself i could have slept till twelve .i just started watching tv . couldnt sleep last night .dont know whether it was due to my pretty screwed biological clock or i just had too much on my mind .while i was at school .the urge to cry was very strong .i dunno why .i feel like immersing myself i nwork and tears and lead a very mundane life .reality strikes rather hard .10 weeks to BT1 .12 weeks to SYF .the next thing you know .the year would have flown past and it is time for 'A' and to hang up my uniform .pity i did not realise that .i m not prepared for reality at all .damnit la

it is just the fourth day of the new year .and everything is falling apart .what a wonderful thing to start the year with .i really wish i was out of school. and not enclosed by fences and gates .did i made another wrong decision to stay ????? i dunno .

okay .leaving now for my next lesson .byeeee

2007-01-02T22:10:00.000+08:00

if i can wish .i wish i can be at somewhere else

been thinking so much .that i m frequently in a daze .like while eating .i will be thinking so much till .i can drop my fork .and not realise .had the biggest dis agreement with my brother .i have no wish to talk about it .but then it left me very very hurt .i dunno why .but then i started thinking again .so much so .i really wish i can hurt myself .recently i have been thinking .will there be a day where i m not troubled by anything .i really hope for everything to end on a nice note .just so for me to die peacefully .i can already feel my fever starting up .and i m not back to school yet .yesterday was a bout of vomitting and headaches at night .hope i m not down with anything .looking at my picture frames .i started crying for no reason .i have been crying so much these few days .that i wonder whether my tears will ever dry up .i cry when i saw my dog .i cry when i watch tv .i feel like such an emo wreck .i dunno how m i going back to sch in this state .furthermore .there isnt much to look forward in sch .is there ????

fuck la .i mean retail therapy is the only thing besides eating that cheers me up. now .when i look at my clothes .i have an urge to use a scissors and cut them all up .even all the food i m eating tastes so bland .what inthe world is happening to me .are these signs to a nervous breakdown .i think so .my heart is beating so fast .that it feels like it is going to jump out of my chest soon .i cannot breathe at times .i feel cold and hot .i look out of the window and i felt like jumping out .i have dreams with me scaring people .and making them fall down .i m scared .why are all these happening to me .i feel so helpless .so hopeless .how can i help others when i dont even trust myself .my new year resoluitions seem to be gone. i look at my unifowrm and i hated it .i look at my work .and i felt like throwing it down the rubbish chute .i know i m going to get a huge scolding from my parents regarding the isue mentioned above .cos it was MY fault .but really. is this what PMS is .cos if it is going to happen every month .i think i m going ot lose all my friends soon .what to be a better friend .haha .i m chasing all my friends away .i think i m raving lunatic .but i cant seem ot control it .

HELP !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-01-02T14:55:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR ALL !!!!!!

once again i m slower than others in making new year resolutions .haha .so i shall now make some new year resolutions .though they dont always work out .but basically there is no harm trying is there :)

resolution 1: stop whining
resolution 2: be more committed in my work .and get better grades than the shitty ones last year
resolution 3: accept the fact i m in SAJC for once
resolution 4: be a better friend
resolution 5: be a better dancer
resolution 6: stop thinking of ways to pon school
resolution 7: go to church more often
resolution 8: stop spending so much
resolution 9: always be happy
resolution 10: dont forget those close to me and must ensure their well-being

now .all the resolutions are damn hard to keep but i shall try .most probably i will fail la .but then .MUST try harder .haah .well one year has passed .making me an older girl .the age of partying and playing does not seem very feasible .but i swear i must make my last year wearing a uniform a very very memorable one .haha .time passes too fast .it was just yesterday .that we count down .and now everyone is back to their own lives .doing their own things .me .i keep looking back at next year .thinking .all that has happen to me .and hoping it will not happen again .but it will. looking back .there are so many things i should have done .and so many things i should not have done .but how useless .it is too late for regrets now .so all i can do is wish for the best for this year .and hope i will have a blessed one ahead :)

hahah .more blessings to the new year .love you guys .byeeeeeeeeeee

2006-12-31T01:20:00.000+08:00

i m so dead tired .but i shall still blog a little .
the day before:

out with my darling to watch movie .which had a pretty meaningless plot .at the battle scenes .where everyone was dying .me and shoe were laughing like nobody's business .but the palace is the ultimate grandeur .i wanna live there .haha and gongli and the other girl boobs were damn big la .haha .we were wondering how the dress managed to hold up without dropping and exposing the boobs . then went home .to get the phones.(a long story) .then out for dinner with the parents cos i was too lazy to get something to eat .then out again .met up with tim and co .and went to play xbox .which i must admit it was quite hilarious to see them play .then back for some beauty sleep .got woken up to talk to someone .and was asked to play games .played till 3+ .then realis the time .went back to bed w/o offing the comp .resulting in my dad almost chopping my head off . haha

yesterday:

mingkoon ahs wedding .woke up at the worst time possible .7am .damn .haha .but must get used .sch reopening already .back to the topic in question .haha .i was late .and being a bridesmaid .i was almost killed by my uncle .but .he is so nice. he wouldnt want his one and only favourite niece to die at such a tender age right :)haha .the wedding was nice .pretty good lunch reception .though it was almost the same as wednesday one with more stuff only .and the fruit punch was normal w/o a trace of vodka (no wonder i felt the fruit punch tasted different ) .then i was pretty much left to my own devices with the odd relative asking me about school .i hardly mingle with my cousins cos i see them only once a year .and they are all guys .there is a limit to their range of topics you know .last time i heard .it was about cs .now xbox .it is b to the g .BORING like shit .heh .then i had to look after my nephew and niece while the tea ceremony was on .then .i get my hongbao .then my mom and i went to shop . looking damn hot .too hot for town .judging by the no of looks i got for my legs (my dress just covers my butt nicely) .haha .we decided to do a make over and i bought new shoes .for no reason .and i saw ms wee .dancing for m.a.c . my fav brand .haha .then head home to change .haha .i wore back my prom dress which bared my back .haha .so morn i bared leg .night i bared back .(what an unconventional bridesmaid) .haha .drank again .and talked to lulu .an air stewardess at our table (old neighbours with my uncle) .finally some companionship .haha .talked about how to become an air stewardess .hhaa .i do hope to become one .but the chances are pretty slim .nice videos .and great food .makes me a happy girl (i need to lose weight soon. ht and wt is coming back !!) .but the wedding left me a pretty emo wreck .i cracked up when i saw my uncle drinking a drink made out of his most hated veggie .and licking people .then i cried at his pics montage .where he thanked me for putting up with him .i was the only younger generation mentioned .i m so going to miss him .calling me and talking to me .buying things for me .bringing me out .damnit .the floodgates are opening again .did i mention i get to go taiwan next year again for the dinner at taiwan (the wife relatives all taiwanese) .haha .yippeeee .and the taiwanese were all so cute faced and hot .chose either .and all very rich .haha .i likeeeeeee .hehe .that is pretty much alll

today:

saw tim with his mother at wisma .i did not notice .cos i was lost in my own world again .but he poked me so hard .i could not not have noticed .haha .said hi .and was on my way again .must not go so close to him .he is such a jinx (another long story) .then .the mother fetched me home after tuition .hehe .so the parents are gone for a trip to KL .i m expecting loads of presents when they get back .and it is two days w/o parent .havoc .liek my brother decided to get home veyr late .he said around two .and my mother left me her wallet .which means more shopping .and such a question is who wants to go out with me tomorrow :D

wel .a very long post .hopefully you guys did not fall asleep .and i m tired from typing so much .my dog is sleeping on my bed like it knows my dad is not home .and wont scold it .haha .well .this will be one of the last long post i will have .cos i dont think i will have time to blog much when school reopens .okay .shall say a sayonara here .and a very HAPPY 2007 TO EVERYONE I KNOW .and take care and have a shower of blessings.god bless :D

2006-12-28T23:15:00.000+08:00

so once again .since i m extremely bored and waiting for shoe to reply me .and waiting for my convos to be a lil bit more active .i shall blog once again .to keep my sanity intact .

so once again going back to my bus ride to town .i really cant understand why must people cut into the bus lanes .and keep turning here tuning there .people will get dizzy one you know .and as a result .what would have been a perfect jam free road is packed like sardines .and it has nothing to do with the traffic lights .and can all drivers go back and take the highway code or english lessons .what is meant by bus lanes . it is for bus only .and it was perfectly logical that no cars was to go there cos it was still within the timeframe .idiots .either you guys take english lessons to learn the difference between a bus and a car or you can get your eyesight checked to see whether you are blind to see the giant words on the floor and the different colours .or keep to your own lanes .pick any or all three .your choice

i can bet my life .my parents still dont believe i came home alone yesterday .dang .now .even if they have absolute trust in their daughter abilities to get a guy and her looks .reality is totally the contrast .i mean .if i can hook a guy .it would have been done a long time ago .and not wait till now that i m still very single and very available .i gave up hope a pretty long time ago .keeping a positive attitude is a rather encouraging thing to do .haha .but deep down .i really want someone of the opposite sex to care for me .and look after all my whims and put up with all my whining .physcial attraction is one thing .crush is another thing .but love .i havent found it yet .so i cant say i trust that there is such a thing in this rather weird world we live in .when i was young .i wanted my partner to be tall.tan.good-looking .then i wanted a caucasian .then i switched to a taiwanese .then now .i m back to my childhood dreams .with the addition of shaven heads and glasses .not the kuku nor balding kind .but those that actually shows a deeper side to that person .and tall is a must .so at least i can wear heels out rightos .everyone says they want to set me up with someone .but most never got round to doing it .again all words but no action .i remembered once on my watch-movie-alone days .i realised i chose the wrong seat .i had a preference for seats near the toilet .all around me were couples .it felt like they were laughing at me .no friends .no partner .bleh .punch myself in the face . those were days when i would have willingly bureid myself in the ground .even some of those whom i thought would be single all have partners .damnit .perhaps god decided it was not my turn to be shot by cupid .or cupid and god decided not to waste an arrow on me .or that the arrow shot someone else instead (ala. he missed. that would explain why people around me are getting attached) .or perhaps a sign that i should concentrate on my work .ohhhh .who m i kidding .i really need to accept facts that the arrow will not shot me anytime soon .darn .and why m i laddening my readers with my life problems. bleh

yar .i know .once again an emo post .haha .and i will be removign the tagboard soon .cos i discovered no one actaully tags .so yar .byeeeeee

2006-12-28T22:22:00.000+08:00

so i m back .with a rather heavy head .haha .i had so much fun yesterday .yummy food and the best company ever .what more can ia ask for .haha .gift exchange was nice .i like .though i would have love the pyagu .how many times have i said i wanted to buy but never really got to getting it .hmmmmm .and i drank rather a lot .but heng i never inherited my mom bad habit of gulping everything down .i sure would die .and a ten course buffet .lovely .i want more of this .so many pictures .not from my cam .which is still unfortunately spoilt .again .another thing i never really got round to getting .haha .so . i have to wait for everyone to upload theirs before i take it .haha .so smart .i really pride myself on my intelligence at times :)

i know you guys will kill me .i barely could wake up this morn .but had to go for tuition .and a party .so i forced myself up .and damn .why must the road to town be jammed .causing me to be late for tuition .so in the end i forsake tuition and went for an engagement party for another of my relatives .i had some of the weirdest dreams yesterday .what retarded thing alcohol can do to your body i swear .and my mother thought that a guy sent me home in a cab yesterday .and my dad too .gosh .so i faked to them that a guy brought me home .and i kinda of said someone's name .haha .and this morning they interrogated me like shit .i wanna kill myself already .how come they are so dumb .cos no one would ever send me home at such a time .mainly because

1. the midnight surcharge is absolutely horredous
2. no one stays near me for nuts sake
3. most were still there
4. why would a guy want to send me home ?
5. i m really too horrid looking by spore standards to be sent home by a guy
6. i prefer going home myself (i feel bad bout letting someone bring me home and pay for my fare)
7. i get to hog the taxi alone
8. no one will want to be seen with an ugly girl in a cab

and etc .mainly to go on about my looks. and i would prefer not to hear a thing from anyone .haha .but i m still on about loving myself :) tomorrow date with shoe shoe again .perhaps with the other folks as well .and thanks to ryan for the rose .haha .i had fun .and i m looking forward to more fun :D so toodles guys ...

2006-12-26T22:20:00.000+08:00

MERRY BELATED CHRISTMAS PEEPS

so i m a little late. sorry la .i went out early in the morn to settle some even more last min shopping with the mother .and came back at 3 in the morn slightly tipsy and blurred .i had a fun fun xmas with the family .food glorious food .yummy .i stuffed myself like a pig .we did not have the conventional xmas turkey dinner .haha .we had steamboat and potluck .my mom and i woke up super early like 4 .to make the soup .and we brought 10 cans of abalone there .and sushi .i think dad must be feeling the pinch already .haha .and there was so many food .that we all had to take away .haha .but it was so fun .we had to push all the living room chairs away and and three steamboat counters .on the dining table coffee table and another table .saw many unfamiliar relatives .and i discovered i had a 7 year old aunt .2 to be exact .haha .geez .all of us rather old people felt so awkward .and they were quite shy cos they never see all of us before .

and so i had steamboat for dinner again tonight .haha .but nevermind .the food is still damn nice .esp in such a cold weather .hope it doesnt rain tomorrow at timo's house party .that will be such a party pooper .haha .out with shoe again tomorrow to watch movie .we are thinking of curse of the golden flowers .the rather perverted us wants to see gong li's boobs .i already prepared my clothes for tomorrow to match tim's dress code .formal .i was preparing to wear shorts k .but now i have to wear jeans which is like too loose for me .people better dont pull my jeans k .they will slip off rather easily .blah .haha

i m having fun doing my hw .makes a queasy face .i have never ever done holiday homework before .this is a first .cos in the past .no one ever bothers doing .cos no one ever checks .even if must hand in .we got our ways of getting answers and copying it .haha .this time .i m so screwed .received a msg .to tell us to do maths hw .and just thinking about it .makes me want to puke .cos i definitely wont touch it .haha .it was rather a form of reality check for me .to say that i forgot everything .diesssssssss .haha

i better go and find something to entertain myself .byesssssssssss

2006-12-24T23:23:00.000+08:00

i still dont feel christmassy .except the cold that seems to reach my bones .i have always like christmas .and the presents and the warmth .but this year .not much to get me in the mood .like rather ridiculous presents which i rather not have .but some of it have been pretty decent enough .while some are like the cherry on the pie .haha .

the best gift i have received was my darling to go out with me yesterday .haha .we went to bugis .and really went mad .haha .hey .i have switched from high end boutiques to coolio shops ..and i managed to blow a lot there w/o me feeling anything much .we spent everything in our wallets can .haha .incontrollable spending .i think if we did not leave fast enough .i would have blown away all my pay .well .last week of school .and so much stuff to be done and go to .

for example.
1. tomorrow .church + family dinner =loads of warmth and laughter
2. tuesday .facial to prep my face for the wedding
3. wednesday. out with my darling + tims bbq = more warmth and laughter
4. thursday. tuition + mani & pedi
5. friday. dental + loads of rest
6. saturday. THE WEDDING!!!!

and in between i still have to make sure i finish up my work .what a huge hectic week .arrgh .and i m still not lookign forward to school .it seems that time passes too fast .i m so freaked out .i m not prepared .ohhh .what can i do ????

okay .whatever .i m to go already .byeeeee

P.S i have a fetish for guys with shaven heads and glasses :)

2006-12-22T00:16:00.000+08:00

hmmm .so i m almost done wiht chemistry homework .i have totally abandoned all hopes of even touching maths .it is the bane of my life literally .whilst doing chem .i jsut realise i can do the questions. i just never bother reading it and that the questions are so twisted that my brain hardly catches up .and you will most probably see loads of blanks in my homework :)

oh well .so my brother is back from his mini trip to bangkok to do hard labour .and he says next tiemthere is such an event i should go .excuse moi .me do hard labour .when i get enough of it in school .i seriously think my brother is mental .and he has been in his room the entire day .that my dad says that my brother come back like never come back .that is good enough for me .cos this way he wil not come out and make a fuss outta of everything .well at least he bought a watch for me .a real guess one .though i would have much preferred that pink one .which is so pretty and nice .haha .i think i m goign to gather in dust and rot soon .can someone ask me out .besides shoe .i need some retail therapy .though there is not much to buy lah .but who cares .i want to explore bugis there .haha .anyone up for the challenge .and i have four free eragon tickets. i want to watch but no one to watch with me (it gets boring watching alone after a while) .so i m giving it away .up for grabs now .before i throw it into the longkang .and it will be so wasted .

so whilst waiting for shoe to call me .others can book me so i can go out .if not .the next thing you know .i will be walking to school with cobwebs all over me :P .byebye

2006-12-20T00:32:00.000+08:00

these are the days where you wish nothing more but to curl up on the sofa with your dog and a cup of hot chocolate .surrounded by your family .haha .i heard from people that the shopping malls are packed .must be all the last minute shopping for xmas .plus the weather.so i finally decided to get out of the house after much persuasion from my parents .and a much disappointing afternoon with the hw .i cant seem to do anything .my mind is a rotten blank .how am i to survive next year .dies .so off we went to pick my mother from work .and we were pretty much stuck in a jam and a flood .but we escaped unscathed .haha .well. too bad for those who wished that something will happen to me .went to suntec .i headed off to crabtree & evelyn to get presents for some of my best friends .all are getting the same thing .it is either lavender or rose .dont blame me .but seriously they smell damn nice .next up was the usual grocery shopping and dinner .it got boring after a while .so we headed off to paragon .and the mother bought a gucci bag and presented it to me .whee .new bag .though i would have prefered something else like that particular red bag i had my eye on for a pretty long time .then we headed home .cos my dad forgot to feed the dog and did not want it to die of starvation .though i think that my dog has enough fats in it to survive .

so perhaps it was a rather good day .just a wee bit of thank you to my parents for bringing me out .and letting me have fun before heading back to the books. thanks to timothy wong for putting up with my whining and then start chiding me for whining .and thanks to my cow for listening to that wee spot of trouble i had yesterday yar .so i m just awaiting shoe arrival back in spore from the faraway city of beijing .and we are going out on friday .i want to go to bugis .shoe a new place to hang out :)

and i received a rather belated present today .i remembered saying about the aircon being too dry and that my nose and sinus has been acting up recently .so this person who is my aunt decided to send me something weird .together with somethng even weirder .she sent me

1. a humidifier.haha .yups .it has smoke coming out .and the oil is green apple with a touch of peppermint that has a calming effect and can help reduce my sinus

2. more la senza bras .and it is a wonder how she managed to know my size and my fav brand .plus giving me the receipt so i can get my VIP .which seems a little far . $500 .who in the hell need so many bras .though i have like 8 of them :P

haha .okay .so perhaps i m going to sleep and enjoy my new humidifier .byes :)

2006-12-19T00:45:00.000+08:00

hello folks .how are you people holding up in this dreary weather that is wet and dark .the mood to play in the rain is totally turned off by the sight of how the garden behind our house is so muddy and wet .and if you guys are waiting for photos .sorry to disappoint .there are no photos .cos i did not bring my cam there and it is unfortunately spoilt .promises bout new camera have been made .haha .so wait .i having been using his cam for days there .with a record of thousand plus photos .he can just die uploading them and sending it to moi .but then i would not post it up cos it is a total hassle to upload onto blogger and shutterfly .you guys think you can look at 1000+ photos .nah .it is impossible .

been back for a few days .there are things that has been effing me out .i realised my chinese has improved .and the people in spore are pissing me of with their mannerisms .and that perhaps a few people have been drifting away from moi. but then i swear to myself not to let this get me down .and get a headstart in my hw .which does not seem to be diminishing in quantity .and then i woke up one day with a start .and asking myself .why am i letting people harm me .am i too fragile or i m too easy to read .perhaps .when shoe comes back to go out with me then i might end up clearer .i really do miss my bubbly self .but the thought of jan the third .i m filled with dread and apprehension .the feeling is even worse than when i was collecting my 'o' level results .and even the thought of facing people in sch .makes me cry .how come .i think i need to see psychatrist soon at the rate i m going .i think my parents are worried bout me. i have been shutting myself in my room .keeping quiet .something they are not used to .i really do miss the fun i had in taiwan .the carefree life they lead .i wonder will i ever have that in spore .i dont know .i really do hate myself nowadays .i keep asking myself .why m a follower but never a leader .why am i such a loner .why do people never seem to hear when i m in distress .why do i always think of myself only . why am i such a needy person .why is everyone ignoring me .why do i gossip about people .why do people want to harm me .why why why .so many questions left unanswered .perhaps it is only best to let it go .but then i told myself .all these questions can only be answered by myself only .

i m so peturbed .reallly .i m .and i m jsut whining .so ignore me ..byee

2006-12-15T00:21:00.000+08:00

well .another day of walking .and my legs are sore .my eyes are droopy .and my arms .they are totally numb .but .the aftermath of shopping was to feel at least a wee bit happier than i was in spore .was discussing my prospects with momma just now .and she hopes for me to stay in spore to study .cos she worries about me .esp since i m so easily fooled .well see first .if i can even get into anywhere with my horrible grades .

so today .i decided to tie up my hair .cos it was effing me whenever i eat something .so the guys decided to be nice .and help french braid my hair .it was disastrous can .the whole thing was like falling apart .so i put it up into a ponytail .it looks okay .but the fringe is like totally off .it was like so wrong .so i decided .once i get off the plane .i must make an appt with alvin to settle my fringe .which has never looked right since the beginning of the year .perhaps due to the bangs yar .no more bangs .i m going for wispy fringe :)

okay .i m done reporting .so byeeeeeeeee

2006-12-14T14:08:00.000+08:00

we are in a lil cafe in a shopping mall .wasting time on the computers .while the mother is busy trying to grab all the stuff he hands can possibly hold. she almost went crazy when we were at Taipei 101 just now .laddening her hands with what seems like a mountain of bags and shoes .well .okay .i admit .some were for me .but i must emphasize the fact that she just cant resist the lower prices of the stuff here .neither can i .i mean how can you resist genuine A&F stuff at perhaps half their prices .and books that are seemingly having discount all year round .how can you .

so while the mother is still shopping at a shopping centre equivalent to takashimaya but at least 2x the size .i shall update a wee bit bout yesterday .haha .i played the bball game still my arms were sore can .we played for about an hour .wasting money on the machines .it is so addictive .i finally did manage to advanced to the third stage after endless of tries .then .it was off to shop .i decided not to look at the small shops along the roads .but rather head into small shopping centres .well .they were like ICON @ bugis .but with more things .i finally found the A&F shops .and blasted a lot before i was contented .tried hard to find junk food tees .but cannot find anymore .then it was off to wufenpu .the wholesale market .here .you can find almost everything .we spent quite a long time there .the place never fails to amaze me with the stuff it has .like cheapskate ed hardy tees and caps .which i bought .and many more .haha .tried to find the elastic belts .but the buckles were all not very nice .well .i guess .i will have to find them back home .

then i headed back to the hotel at 10 .to change into my 'clubbing' attire .which was the dress and heels .and i was freezing i swear .lucky the club was warm .so many people .apparently it was a party .by his friends .yar .so we had fun .and there was like no need to check ID .they just assume your age by your dressing .almost could not get in cos of my 'baby-face' .hey .just because i look young does not mean i have a baby face nor does my voice do any justice to that assumption .we all came out at like 3 .pretty much drunk .but the music was great .the company was awesome .i never felt so realxed before .haha .and yar the girl was there .and she did not look very happy that the guys were like asking me about spore .which kinda of got on my nerves after a while .then went back to the hotel .and collapsed on the bed .

woke up ultra early to acc mom to the office for one of the last meetings .i had to wear shades the whole day which i m still doing cos of the giant eye rings i have .which no matter how much concealer i put has not effect .haha .i bought another pair of fake eyelashes from shu umera cos they are much cheaper. and a couple more makeup .haha .then here i m rotting in the cafe .hoping to get a little bit of sleep. it is back to wufenpu again tonight .cos mother wants to go there again .haha .okay .as i m not feeling that intellectual today. you people need not worry about me sprouting wisdom .haha .byeeeeeeeeee

P.S to cow .no 188gemini boys here .but dont despair yar .you have a 167scorpio girl by the name of leilei .who knows she is being missed by you and she is willing to turn into a boy for your sake la :D

2006-12-12T23:57:00.000+08:00

i m back from midnight shopping .at the night market of course .haha .tomorrow is like a super packed schedule so i m going off to bed early .well .i finally found out the name of the club .it is called luxy .the equivalent of spore's very own zouk .wish me fun tomorrow .apparently the sch has sth on tomorrow .so we are heading out early .morning and afternoon at ximending .then to wufenpu .then back to the hotel to change and go club .my first and virgin clubbing experience .hope i dont make a fool out of myself .i bet i will though .

haha .the night market was fun .with the amzing amt of food and shopping that never fail to make me breathless. the amt of people there is amazing .haha .i like the feeling of peopl pushing people .call me queer but you can rarely experience things like this except during GSS and CNY @ chinatown. but here i experience everyday .like popping into a samll cafe in the middle of nowhere can actually bring you endless surprises and smiles .it is a wonder how did i manage to survive in such a boring place like spore .where the only place to pacify your retail craving is orchard road .haha .

tomorrow is retail therapy day .i m going to hunt out the small shops that actually sell genuine A&F clothes. junk food tees .hehe .well .the poor people accompanying me tomorrow are going to regret that they came out with me .haha .

hustle and bustle really seem to put a smile to my face .it seems that only when i m truly occupied with something i like .then i m happy .well .i can hardly do that in spore can i .what other things that can really entice me to perhaps put in more effort .nothing. except to shop .i can probably tell you the shops in the entire stretch of orchard road .but i can never be able to perhaps remember the entire sequence of translation and transcription .or the reactions in org chem .call me lousy i dont mind .i m just a hopeless idiot who knows that she is unable to cope with JC life and die die also wont admit it .by pushing herself so hard .she never knows when she is going to collapse .perhaps .the one day she collapses will be the day that someone finally notices her presence .in this huge and blank world we live in .

oh gosh .what is really wrong with me today .i seem to be sprouting insensible words .maybe the trip to the hotsprings did clear my rather irrational mind .and did i mention .i puked the minute we started on the journey up .i almost died .lucky on the way down .i was so relaxed and fell into a comatose-like sleep that prevented me from puking out perhaps the dinner and lunch i had like yesterday

2006-12-12T13:36:00.000+08:00

haha .just waiting for the car to come .so i decided to blog a little. the weather is still cold .but it just feels like i m walking in a place that is air-conditioned 24/7 .and one sad thing is that i m heading home on friday .yar .quite fast .i will miss this place but i miss spore more cos of the people .i m just trying to say that you guys are missed :)

well .about time the car should come .i hope i dont get carsick on the way up the mountains like the other time where i was puking my guts out every 5 minutes .heard the roads are even more treachrous now .but the scenery up there is totally enjoyable .haha .company dinner at night then off to Shilin Night Market .perhaps time will slow down for me to enjoy more of this wonderful city

tomorrow is Xi Men Ding .haha .my favourite basketball game @ the arcade with his friends and more shopping before heading to the club .no idea what to wear .maybe i will just don on the red dress i just bought .heeh .but i will be freezing my butt off .and cutting the blood circulation on my feet with killer heels .yar .that is the extent i will most probably go for the sake of beauty .hehe .appparently the point is that my legs are considered of good quality in taiwan .haha .well .perhaps the good genes i have inherited from my parents ??? but thinking of that .it is quite perverted to keep looking at my legs right .i really do wonder what goes about in guys heads besides legs boobs face

haha .pappa just called the mother that he just acquired a company .which makes him a towkay .haha .and my comp is fixed .it was only the starter that has no batt .heng ah .but the comp is quite old already .since i was sec 2 .but it is still functioning properly with the odd problems of non-genuine microsoft office .and pathetic internet connection (results of surfing too many youtube vids).

that is all of my rather unpredicatable life .i m so happy-go-lucky that even i m shocked by the outrageous stuff i do at times to keep my counterparts happy .but really if you dont love yourself .how can you expect others to love you?? i just learnt this yesterday .so yar .i m going to love myself more .so that i can love others better :) trying not to be selfish is a virtue that i constantly try to uphold but the more i try .the harder it is .our lives seem to be made up of a web of deceit .so entangled are we .we never really go and observed our surroundings .cos we are so used to the way we are living for our own sake .the world is a cruel one .entangling ourselves seem to be something we are so good at .but when we are sick of it .trying to untangle ourselves is an entirely different thing .almost impossible .but it seems like we like to do the impossible .it is not like the adidas ad .impossible is nothing .impossible is something .something that entice us to acheive greater heights while abandoning those that are dear to us .perhps we really should slow down .take and deep breath and start working at how we should get our pretty much screwed up lives back into other

okay. this is like one of those days i feel literal and stuff. ignore if you want .hope it is not too much for you guys to absorb .haa .time to leave .so byebye !!!

2006-12-12T00:28:00.000+08:00

whee .i m back .haha .the mother is behind me nagging me to bathe and get to bed .but i m too high to do anything .this is one of the best trips i had in years .it is so nice .the guy took me out to places i have never been to before in a chaffeured car .i have never ever rode in a chaffeured car before .wheee .damn cool .haha .i went to his sch to pick him up .and the people there were quite nice except for some girls whom i think has a crush on him or something .they werent exactly glad to see me .mutttering bout my face and stuff .hello think i m deaf issit . standard political training in sch has trained me to pick up stuff like this .dont think it can escape okay .

i am really having loads of fun .the hotel is nice .the food is nice .the people are nice .it is almost like dreamland .well .i m going to the hotsprings tomorrow .and seafood dinner .plus more shopping .the guy says he is bringing me to a club on wed with his friends .tsk tsk .i kinda of declined .but he talked to my mom .and i have to go :( but apparently the girl is going and she thinks i cant club for nuts .which is exactly the case .but well .i must prove to her .singaporean girls cannot be messed with .well long day ahead tomorrow .i m going with mummy .cos she has no meetings tomorrow .lovely .

heard that the pig has got a new dog .haah .but he cant mess with gigi .gigi is the ultimate cutest and laziest dog and she is mine .so it makes perfect sense that she is better than tims one right ??haha .okay .no sense but yar .haha .i m high on fun .are you guys too

byeeeeeee

P.S my pappa called to say my comp is down .it is going to the docs tomorrow .hope it is okay .i dont want to lose all my music files which are like the most impt things in my computer .so yar .haha .cant wait for the 27th .then can meet up with everyone .shoe shoe .are you back yet .i missed you so .haha .waiting for any news of you :)

2006-12-11T14:11:00.000+08:00

official first day in TW .my mom brought her lappie so i will be online and blogging at weird times .well first day is not that bad .with the exception of the rain outside .it is freezing .but the taiwanese boss son will be bringing me out later to buy a jacket and some warmer clothes .hehe .he is quite cute in a boyish way .but he speaks in chinese to me like 90% of the time .quite terrible considering my pathetic level of chinese .lovely .cant wait for the shopping trip later .missing you people already .seeya !!!!

2006-12-09T22:04:00.000+08:00

past few days been nice . work was dopes fun .the people are damn hilarious .haha .and the managers from creative and starhub keep coming to talk to us .just chat .haha .it was damn relax .but still talk like mad .going to miss them

haha .well .the manage of creative damn cool and handsome .and cute .arrgh .gosh .he was kinda of like disturbing my work .asking me rather nonsense questions .sales was pretty bad .20 phones only .haiz. hope tomorrow the girl replacing me will have better results .hehe

i m kinda of having fun with work with the exception of aches .and stuff .haha .the creative manager was giving all the promoters free massage .we even went to osim during our breaks to use the massage chair .haha .we are such lousy pokes .well the environment was defintiely much better than last week .hope the next place i m deployed to will be good to

whee .momma and pappa came to pick me up from work yesterday an i started whining to momma about new phone .i have partially convinced her to get me the D900 .haha .she kinda of hates the LG one .yay .i m convincing pappa too .then i will get it .haha .ok .i m bushed so byebye !!!

2006-12-07T17:29:00.000+08:00

i feel so cheated .haha .the trip been postponed till monday .how come .blah .which means i can work tomorrow .lovely dovey .haha .more money to be earned .but 7 days of TW only .not enough !!!!! but momma going KL at the endof the year .i m planning to draw up my x'mas list .now here is the topshop website and aldo website .....

2006-12-07T00:22:00.000+08:00

if a person does not remember your name
then he is not worth remembering .

2006-12-07T00:10:00.000+08:00

blogger is making me mad .adding up to the ball of fury in me .pissed !!!!really should i switch to lj ???

okay .nvm .my table finally came in today .haha .it is really long and nice .the hse is finally completed .but the living rm is what i call japalang .different assortment of funiture .haah .footrest .barang chair .massage chair .contemp looking console and an antique chest .japalang beyong japalang .haha

enough rubbish .my parents are so weird .my mom esp .she is so creepy .she came to my room to sleep .woke up the next morning .and said to me .your hair smells very nice .even though i havent wash my hair the day before .and my dad opened a hotmail acct .for no reason .he say it is cool .how weird .and they came to me with news yesterday .we are going TW on friday .wahhhhhh .i m rushing to pack cos we are goin for 10 days .wheee .i can hear my Ximending calling out to me .i like !!!!!!

well my boss still hasnt replied me .if not they have to wait till i touched down then they can get back their phones .well too bad .i m effing pissed .they rarely bother to reply my calls nor msgs .anger .....and not only to add on .some things that are meant to be unsaid stays the same .stop pestering to get an answer which you know is not the one you want to hear .havent you people ever heard .curiosity kills the cat .dummys !!!!!!!

arrgh .anyone wants anything from TW .haha .dont expect much cos it is winter there .i dont expect much too .haha .except fruits and food .haha .tempting .Shilin night market .here i come !!!!!! bye peeps

2006-12-05T23:48:00.000+08:00

in response to jlynn's tag .here are the photos of my new hair .ignore the unglam me .haha .you can see some parts of my undone room .

that is how long my hair is

so straight and pretty

hehe .jlynn .you better say i m nice :) and boy .am i annoyed .no one ever picks up my calls .except for cow .my parents .wah lao eh .and dont even bother replying my sms .and alst min tell me things. heh .i dont pick up my phone is either because

1. i dont want to talk to you, or
2. i m eating, or
3. the phone is not near me so i cant hear it

but if i sms you like 2 hours ago .should you not have the decency to reply .and not wake till the middle of the night and wake me up from my sleep after i have made plans .wah .can die leh

well shall leave a pic of my baby here for you guys to swoon over .haha .just dont kiss your screens yar .byeeeeeee

2006-12-05T19:09:00.000+08:00

SORRY CHERYL COW !!!!!!

i promise to make it up to you another day .okay .saturday i m free .you want me to go out with you and do rubbish or anything also can .i want to go badly .but forget it la .try talking sense to my mother .it is like talking to a wall .really .it infuuriates me at times

i m really so tired .only me and my dad are doing something to clean the house .my mom gives the orders and forever complain we dont do a good job .ask her to do .she says we want her to die of tiredness .okay .whatever .my little ass of a brother is glued to his computer .24/7 .only stopping to eat shit and piss .fuck him la .i gave him a job as a promoter .he came home to complain .i was damn pissed .the next day .the company gave them a treat .he still complain .compalin compalin complain .if the next job he has and he compalins .i will personally call his boss .and make sure he gets sacked .heeee .i feel so bad .god .how i would kill for a job but here he is complaining .damn bastard

today weather is so weird .the front of my house is nice and clear with great wind .at the back of my house .there is a thunderstorm .interesting :) notice how i digress .cheryl darling .call me whenever you want to go out yar .i treat you to meatballs/crayfish pasta k

smile guys .cos you are reading my blog :) byebye

2006-12-05T00:05:00.000+08:00

heeee .my hair looks totally fake .i seriously mean it but i am loving the smoothness .so nice .haha .i will go back to curls after "A"s when i have more time and ability to maintain

haha .school is going to start soon .must study already .haha .i just realise it is going to be so bad when school reopens. here is why

1. first week - chem test on org chem
2. second week - maths test on intergration techniques
3. third week - econs case srudy test on market failue, D & S, price determination and central probs of economics

shittos .blah .and i havent exactly touched my enormous pile of hw .dies .maybe i should not work anymore yar .well .haha .thats all folks .byesssssssssss

2006-12-03T23:30:00.000+08:00

hehe .first day of work and my feet are already killing me .try standing for 8 hours straight w/o break .w/o air con .but it was quite fun .i learnt many many new stuff today .so fun .i want to do it again .but i m quite horrible .anyhow whack information about the plans .sales was GOOOOOOOOOOD .i like .haha .63 phones .i totally was shocked .i was like almost at the stage of shoving the phones at people .

and i turned down a job offer for tomorrow for my hair appointment .sorry .but my hair comes first .esp the state it is in now .haha .blah .i wished that there was commission for ericsson phones .then i would earn so much more :)

wheeeee .cant wait for my next deployment !!!!!!!! bye folks

2006-12-02T10:12:00.000+08:00

well .being a blog-hopper .i frequently read people blogs and here are some things i found out about some of them .

there is one class of people who blog about their CCA .like me .but everyday .about training .how torturous is it .what they have done .so much so .you start wondering whether the blog is about them or their CCA .the blog = a shrine for their CCA

another class of people .blogs like perhaps once every blue moon .but there are still people who flood the tagboard .asking stupid questions or make super biased comments .it is weird .the person dont blog .you got problem .the person blog also got problem .and the owners of such blogs dont blog but reply to the tags .patiently .jesus .this means the blog = tagboard only

third class of people .their blogs are so intellectual and random .you think .what the hell is this person trying to put across to you .really .i read the post .and i went har .what are you talking about .their post make you feel stupid and lousy .the blog = intelligence only suitable for geniuses or people with super high IQ

fourth class of people .reporting their recent buys is their job .there are people who repeatedly asked where they bought it ,every post is one about their recent buys .with pictures and pictures and pictures of it .you will wonder this girl is either a shopaholic or has too much money to spare .and when you see something that is nice .you will make a tag enquiring about it. their blogs = showroom and free advertisement for shop-owners

fifth class .picture post everyday with really queer captions like a picture of a plant will say colours .evn though it is green only .pictures of themselve (cam-whores) .picture of their friends .pictures of their pets .pictures of their family .pictures of their home .whatever is being captured on their cammie goes into their blog .their blog = photo album

last class .everything is fine but the font they use in horredous .typing in both cpas and normal font .together with italics and underline and superflowerly stuf .only people with amazing eyesight and concentration can finish reading .their blogs are filled with lahs .fucks .hors .IM .their blogs = signs whether the person is a lian or a beng

funny isnt it .how some blogs are like that .you can laugh .but it is true :)

2006-11-29T23:21:00.000+08:00

hehe .i m going back to straight hair soon .as soon as mommy makes my appointment ,well .i will miss my curly hair and the volume (it makes a difference to your entire image) .but it is just so hard to maintain .knowing a lazy person like me .it is entirely impossible for me to keep it nice and curly .so i need something that is low-maintainence + straight hair .just hope it does not comes out too straight .well .my hair has pereptually lost all it curls except the ends .unless i take the time to use my fingers to continuously twirl it . it just looks like a pile of grass .especially when i wake up .horror .

my face is not improving .rather it feels like it is deproving even after the facial .somemore the products i m given .makes me look like i dipped my face into an entire wok of oil .i feel like discontinuing the usage .but my mom will kill me .today .she is so weird. she forced me to put on hand cream and wear gloves cos she says i have a pair of hands that look like the market auntie .wth .nevermind .dance tomorrow .and i will be sitting down watching the others and feeling bad cos i m slacking .blah :)

okay .second post of the day to make up of my absence the otehr day yar .so byeeee now

2006-11-29T13:47:00.000+08:00

haha .while looking through some stuff to find my pictures .i found even more pictures to perhaps reminsice my past .never knew i was so cute before .hehe. well i shall leave some to let you guys ponder about .excuse the blurry pics .cos i took with my lousy digi cam :)

man .i look so chubby then .my flesh and meat seems to have disappear over the years .i look like i been put under some stretching machine .haha .well .today .i felt dumb .cos in the past my parent's room were just nxt to mine .i just had to cross over then i will get there. but now there is this wall there .quite stupid. i thought i just had to turn and reach there .and i banged into the wall .my dad said i look retarded then .plastered to the wall

well thats all .love you all .byyeee

2006-11-28T23:00:00.000+08:00

blah .i over-strained my back .and it hurts like shit .the muscles are like swollen .and i cannot bend nor twist my upper body .painnnn .thus i never go for dance on monday and i cannot do anything on thursday unless it heals in time which i do not think so .then somemore today helping to fix my brother's IKEA furniture .made it even worse .i feel like an old granny .hah

well perhpas this injury is a sign from God to tell me to slow down and take things one at a time .though .the pain is unbearable .i m starting on my second picca frame tomorrow .but i have no idea where to hang them haha .and perhaps start on some holiday assignment provided i can find them :)

so bye people .and dont blame my absence yesterday yar .the back was killing me !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-11-26T23:14:00.000+08:00

yoohoo .haha. i m making good my promise about blogging though i m really tired .so here is a slight summary about today

well .people have been startin to make calls to our house to see whether they can come down. in my family .gossip nad rumors travels fast .like when i got my promo result .in two hours .people started calling .haha .weirdos. i asked dad to have a house warming .but he is pretty reluctant .cos he says .waste time and money .haha .well quite true cos i will be doing the cleaning up with my dad .well. finally finish hanging up my clothes and my mom's .and cleared some more boxes .the room looks much nicer now .not as cluttered .and so i should give a brief description about my room .and let you guys anticipate the piccas .

current state is a wee bit meesy .cos my bookshelf and table has not come in yet .so my computer is on the floor with a mess of wires .the TV is not connected yet .but my nine foot wide wardrobe with two giant sliding doors is done .the bed is covered with my favourite aussino 400 threadcount sheets .and the entire room is painted yellow and bathed in warm light .haha .so thats all for now .weeeeee .but somehow the warmthness of my room doesnt get rid of my longing for my old estate .well .i just have to not think about it .

went out with cheryl and wini today .we went shopping for bras at la senza again .hehe .i m falling in love with that place .we spent an hour there cos cheryl could not make up her mind .so me and wini started exploring the shop .i was looking at furry boots and cute PJs with penguins while wini was looking at the naughty section .where all the bras and panties were so over the top .haha .one design looks like it has an overgrowth of pubic hair .we found a naughty set comprising of nipple covers .a whip .garter belt and many more .haha .we left there soon after for high tea at toast .haha .so nice .haha .well .then we started talking and before we left cos wini had to meet joe .me and cheryl then walked more before she had to go off to meet aarylyn at holland v .well .and i m now at home .doing aimless stuff to prevent my thoughts from running wild. i lve my furry slippers from la senza .so comfy .hehe .

ok .i have to go .and i going for a facial tomorrow to perhaps do something to my horrible complexion .so bye folks .and cheryl .we need to go out more !!!!!

2006-11-25T23:39:00.000+08:00

gosh .i know i have not been updating much nowadays .leaving the blog to rot and perhaps gather dust .well the dust has been swept away .and i m back with nothing much but just a little wee bit bout my pretty boring life .

well. i swear the holidays are days where you got nothing to do but to stare at the ceiling .and start thinking rubbish which is what i basically do everyday now .i applied for a job at candy empire but no calls have been made to me .and i applied many other places but then no news too .perhaps God wants me to stay at home and study .but i dont really think that is going to happen .with the TV and computer tempting me 24/7 .it is a little hard .haha .but i need to get back to do some work and try to catch up as much as possible esp since next year is going to be such a crazy year.haha .and then i start thinking of super retarded things which are kept pretty confidential .that sometimes do demoralise me .and then many people are asking me to go for the class chalet .i might go .if i dont go .it will be purely based on my own reasons .well who cares anyway .i do .everyone say it is ok .but then it gets tiring to hear it cos you know it is not .then you start worrying about what other rubbish will sprout out .and whether you will hurt others .but if i do .i will hurt myself .is it worth it .perhaps .i dont know .maybe this is my life .to be a nameless and placeless person not worth a single cent to anyone .

well .finally finished moving but there are many stuff to do .and i feel weird staying at the new place .i mean i have been staying at queenstown since P1 .there is a particular attachment .the convenience. the people .the atmosphere .redhill is alright .but i just dont feel right .maybe it will take time .the excitment of moving house dies down after a while .then you start realising what you miss the most .which is what i m facing now .even my dog feels it .and she ahs been whining .new place .haah .and my dada says it feels like a kampong due to the old buildings and street hawkers .and mediums .well. can i be confident to get use .yar .i guess so .but i m scared to go out at night .cos it is freaking scary here .and i will only leave if my parents are with me .

haha .i know my promise about the photos .one more week and they will be up .will keep you guys posted .and if anyone wants to get me a christmas or belated bday present .go to swirl which is located at capitol building or just go to www.ilovetoswirl.com to get me the jewel dress .there is a discount now .price is 179bucks .haha .thank you .haha .fyi .i fit into topshop size 6-8 .if you getting it for me .tell me and i will gladly acc you down to try the sizes :)

bye folks !!!!!!

2006-11-21T23:34:00.000+08:00

holey moley moley .i finally got blogger back to english .hehe .after one entire year of trying to decipher the chinese words .i m back to english .lovely .and i think i over strained my shoulder muscle .it feels dislocated .too much wiping of windows .i wiped from 9-2 w/o stopping .i m so proud of myself .and i have to stay at the new house by myself on friday with the dog .so whoever wants to come over to see see look look .feel free to come over yar .cos i m officially moving in this saturday .hehe .yay !!!!!

dah dah dah .the dancers are having fun at MOS .i want to go .but my stupid asshole of a brother is going .cos it is after his exams .and i m stuck at home .wiping windows and moping floors .my parents say only for this night .WTH .now when i wanted to go for the past two times .they put on my curfew .and damnit .i have to wait for him to get home .to open the door for him cos he forgot to bring his keys .okay .now i m pissed .i have no idea what time he is coming home somemore .deprive me of my sleep .

nvm .i will sleep near the door to wake up .i m so not going to sacrifice .ok .byebye

2006-11-20T23:06:00.000+08:00

yo yo yo .did you people missed me .i m sure you all did .alright .nothing much happening nowadays .but then my op has been postponed all the way to february .yups

this means .no chinese new year for me .missing school for two weeks .not able to do CIP .hope to recover in time for SYF .hope you school folks will miss me .haha .and now i have to find a job .any recommendations .awaiting all ya replies .

haha .tomorrow is SURGE .big fight and all .but yar .who cares .i m going to be at the new house wiping windows .as much as i would like to go .i would not like to face the long quenues outside .haha .so it is just me alone .and did i mention how much i hate SGH .and NDC .the idiots made me and my mom wait from 2 - 5plus before .i finish all the consultation .damnit .do they know how much i could have learnt during those few hours .gosh .and we had to pay so much again .damnit .i made an appointment at 2 and i could only see the doc at 3 and wait for x-ray .wait for more consultation .pissed .it is a blardy waste of time .my mom is now debating whether to send me private .it is not bout the money .it is bout the time i m wasting .if you guys told me earlier that i will have my op so late .i will definitely switch .now we have paid so much .and this is what we get .bastards .i m so angry .

haiz. now how am i to break the news to cindy about me not being able to do CNY .lynette ????? oh shit la .now i have to figure out myself. this asshole hospital just screw up my schedule .any job recommndations .tell me yar .i need to work !!!!!!!!!!! bye people

2006-11-18T22:47:00.000+08:00

forever21 sunglasses- $11

gucci sunglasses- $270

difference in the price .haha .but no difference in the style .it is love .haha .mummy bought the gucci ones for me w/o my knowledge .hehe .apparently she bought a dior pair for herself .hehe .this is call dont spend money. the f21 one was bought a long time ago .hee

been at the new house the entire day .cleaning somemore .it is more cleaning on tuesday .well .one more wekk of dance then i have to stop .the feeling is mixed .

tralala .time to sleep .bye people :)

2006-11-17T23:47:00.000+08:00

lovely .i practically wasted my whole day at the new house .doing nothing .

in the morn .i woke up ultra early to get to STC .and well. disappointing .they are still not pulling up their socks .what can i say .they got a decent instructor .but then no decent practices .well .they have to strive hard :)

then rushed back to school for cin's dance .well. learned all the combis .and i think i suck at cheena-pok dance. i have problem linking steps .

then rushed to the new house to wait for my chair and mom's one. and the people came early .i saw the van. and starting running from the outside of the estate near then mrt station .mind you it is several blocks k .i almost died .my legs were aching and i was trying to catch my breath .and then i got the orders and made myself comfortable with my vcd .new chair .aircon .chipsand drinks .watch and then sleep .then went out to the living room .sleep and got awaken by mom .hit my head on concrete .and then went home

nice day har .well. typical rushing around day. and it makes me tired .ok .byebye

2006-11-16T11:51:00.000+08:00

perhaps all i was looking for was approval and acceptance

screw this shit la

going back to STC tomorrow .was planning on helping them with techniques. but not like they are going to need it .they got RYAN TAN as their cheorographer for SYF .damnit .haha zaki so hilarious .he said they were going ot do 60 eights .how do you count the no. of eights anyway .but it is quite little .heck .now why wasnt i born two years later .nopes .if i was born later .i wouldnt have had as much friends as before .and knowing the ever interesting FOF .unforsaken class. hot dancers.etc .ok .continuing on .this time i m just going back to help cindy to enquire about the fans. hope i can get it and i cant believe mrs ong is retiring .hello .how can she .not like she was teaching for the money anyway .she was one of my fav teacher in STC .she is so cool and rich .she owns an SLK .and lives in a landed property near town .haah .beat that .

enough ranting on .look at the links for the newest addition .hehe .some people has finally got an lj .and it is going to be one helluva of a noisy and whacky blog .just look at the recent posts .haha. and i recently been starting to have a fantasy of chopping all my locks into a bob .then i realise i got SYF .haha .damn .haha. i going to get a rebonding soon .my hair is like shit .lol .the new house is coming along fine .but we havent move in yet cos of the mess .lalalala .i will post the pics up once we are done moving .byebye

2006-11-14T21:27:00.000+08:00

i m tired .really tired .not just physically .but also mentally .

and today officially marks the END OF PW

you should see how stressed i was this morning .i was practically racing against time .haha .cos lets see i was supposed to leave at 10.30 to rush home to help move the house .second day of moving .i was tired and doing i&r late last night was shit crap .i had no idea what shit i was typing out .then woke up .and dad and mom fetched me to sch cos they had to do something .we went for brekkies .then we head off to sch .and met with a jam .all the way to sch .i was so scared i will be late .then. i thought all we had to do was to hand in the file and file everyone i&r in .wah lau .so not the case .there was so much to do .pagination .use marker write names .and then the format was all wrong and we never count .i was like shit .and then daddy fetched me cos i was too shagged ot think about anything .cos i was damn tensed the whole time about the time .and it was not like i cannot trust my team mates to do it .it is just about the tidiness and i was the one who did the file so yar .and stuff .sorry guys .

and sorry to the class for pang-sehing on lunch again .another time yar .and please chose a good day can .and i m not going for the class chalet :) sorry folks

looking at my pile of holiday homework .i just realise how lucky i was to pass maths .but the thought of bio just kills my appetite .and dance is sucking up all my energy .i need to come up with money for the party .help me think of how to conjure up $125 by the end of december .and i m not working cos of dance and my operation .my mom and dad not helping me pay cos i havent say anything to them .if they hear the amount .they will flip .god .how i wish money will grow on trees for me to pluck. btw $125 is only half the sum .shit la .should i open up the angbaos ???? no no no no .dont entertain that thought lei .and having my nets taken away does not help matters .

so i officially declare HELP CHUNLEI MONETARY FUND open

all sorts of cash is widely appreciated .even 5 cents count k .i will even accept cheque .yar .that is how desperate i m .i need to pay my phone bills too .and those who own me money .please return .thank you guys .and no more eating out .no more retailing .i m going to rot at home every day .till school reopens .it means more emo post .haha .yay .look forward to them yar .

bye folks .i need to sort out my accounts and perhaps watch a little show to relieve the tension in me

2006-11-13T21:16:00.000+08:00

okay guys .stop asking me about my hair .i did not cut it. i swear. it has grown only .and it will remain this way till i find the time to do something to it .but does it looks nice like that .or should i really do something to it ???

enough crap .i m bushed

and there is still I & R .shit .i need help to do it .

where is that bimbo when i need her .

2006-11-11T22:16:00.000+08:00

if there is one thing that upsets me
it is that you pretended you did not know me
and i pretended i did not know you
you said you never meant to hurt me
you just want more space for yourself
well ......
dont call it betrayal
its just a kind of freedom
lets just stay this way
like nothing has ever happened
now when i am looking at you
my eyes seem to get used to the darkness
but it is getting out of focus
i only just found out
that to love you or not
cannot be forced
when you love someone
you wish for him to be better
because .....
he is always much more important than you

2006-11-10T19:41:00.000+08:00

shit .i heard on the grapevine that we might be able to invite melody and ryan to our sch and teach us .now that is so not fair .okay .since when life has ever been fair .but anyway. i swear that if they do manage to come .i will go to sch in bandages and join the class .i will make sure of that .no matter how my mom will scold .i will still go .

i had the weirdest dream but yet the best dream i had in ages .and it is still so vivid and clear in the mind .i m so not going to share my dream here co it is also a wee bit embarrassing .but here is all i got to say .ri you shuo shi .ye you shuo mong .roughly translated .it means whatever you think about in the morning .you will dream about it at night .god i hope it even comes true in real life

but IDTS .no thanks .cos if my dream ever comes true then life will be too perfect .and something worse than my current life might just pop out suddenly and throw all that i have into chaos .goddamnit .

2006-11-10T11:49:00.000+08:00

haha .so i watched step up yesterday .and i dont seem to get enough of it .so it means i will be getting the dvd when it comes out .yeah .haha

went to the new house to do some painting as apparently .dance was cancelled. i woke up .bathed .and changed .then i received the msg .i was one step away from leavng the house .could you imagine if i was already on the train .kill me .haha .then went to the new house. and i made a new discovery .there is a wine and spirits warehouse down the hill from my house .me and dad went there and we saw chivas regal whisky being unloaded .my dad was like whoa .and my dad went there to ask whether we can purchase drinks .and it is yes .and he says he will buy a carton back after we move house .haha .

ok .i m done reporting .going back to sleep again .byebye

2006-11-08T22:15:00.000+08:00

today was a horrible day but the good news is .PW is FINALLY over !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

you have absolutely no idea how good the feeling is when you finally finish up OP and walk to the corridor .it is so GOOD .

haha .dance was the same .teach .learn .clean up .i decided to make up for the missing of ms wee lesson .i m going to do 50 sit-ups before i sleep tonight :)

just finish printing out everything for the GPF .and tidied everything up .well and did i mentioned i totally caould not find my entry proof cos we were moving house and everything is in a mess .then i left my wallet in the LT .the kuku me .only realise when i was leaving sch at 4+ .haiz .then rushed back to search for it .thank god for the attendant who opened the door for me .and that no one took it .it was so inconsipicious .that i almost missed it :)

then went to my mom office and watched more of bring it on .haha .i finally found out the meaning of mami .it means lady i think .then chica blanca should mean bitch :) haha .i found this out through pure guessing and loads of common sense .anyone who knows spanish can correct me ?

haah .and then i came home and my dad was like telling my brother to go buy his new computer cos i spent so much on renovating my room .WTH .new comp for my brother = no macbook for me .asshole .and he gets to hold on to the lappie .shit him .now who is the one who spends more .he is getting a new boom box. new cpu (pentinium 4) .new monitor (17" LCD mine is only 14").new printer (3 in 1) his present spoilt computer is even newer than mine .my is like .slow .retarded.and screwed due to the overload of items my stupid brother downloaded into it .screw him la. it is just not fair .

hmph .nvm .i m counting down to step up tomorrow .i know i watched it on youtube already .but who cares .once is never enough .at least in my case .so bye bye people .haa

2006-11-07T20:10:00.000+08:00

not fair .i want to go .but then it is in december right after my op .why why why .sobs

i want my melody and ryan to teach me .wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh .

2006-11-07T16:34:00.000+08:00

well .i know something is wrong when i start watching bring it on: all or nothing over and over again .and i start becoming like those PV bitches and start talking to my dog in IM .

i totally think spanish in hottest language in the world after jap .hmmmm .haha .maybe i will pick up a new language and start learning how to swear using spanish.

and all you chica blancas listen up. i know that this blog is becoming pictureless .not my fault when no ones post much piccas up for me to steal .or that my cammie and suddenly become kuku and does not listen to my orders :)

2006-11-06T22:43:00.000+08:00

well .been boring and holing myself up at home to save money and also because there is no one to go out with me except myself .i feel like such a LOSER !!!!!! and the thought of going out to watch step up alone on thursday .arrgh .well .i cant blame anyone but myself for having friends who are very busy with .school .boyfriends .girlfriends .work .etc .so i m stuck alone again .

been thinking alot of stuff again .you know i have been mentioning about me flying to the states to study after 'A's .well .i have been asking myself .am i really prepared to go overseas .do i know what course am i going to take .what will happen .i m a blog-hopper .so i will visit blogs from time to time .i keep stopping at blogs where people are studying in the states .the image they potray is like great and funky and they are having loads of fun .that is the kind of education i want .but then .i m not prepared to go alone there .my mom can only perhaps accompany me for a week or two .then i m all alone .and that thought scares me .i m afraid of loneliness .what if i become such a huge loser there .i have no friends there with me .no family .and seeing how dependent i m on my family .it is even worse .

then i will wonder next .after i leave SA .will it be the end of my dance path .everytime i watch so you think you can dance. there is this amazing urge for me to dance. it just inspires me more and more .but the spirit is willing but the body is unable to give. that is what i m afraid of .i m technique-less .i m neither here nor there .i want to dance .cos it is my life .when i go to the states .will i even be able to join any dance group .what do i want to try next .latin dance. hip-hop .krump .cheerlead .

i have like absolutely no direction now .and it terrifies me .cos i dont know what to do .i always had plans for myself .including what course i was going to chose .which uni i wanted to go .i already laid the cement for my path .but the tiles are missing .my grades are not allowing me to do what i want .i mean it is my fault that i never try hard enough .but then i just cant do it sometimes .i want to give up .i came so far .but yet everything just goes haywire .it is just so not fair .i pray to God everyday .it helps to keep my emotions down .keep my spirits up .

i m still the cheery leilei you guys know .but then as time goes by .it is hard to keep that facade up for long .it tires me .are all my worries unfounded or are they just an excuse for all my failures .am i still to pursue my education overseas .i know the wonders of studying in spore .but then it is just too small for me .i need an adventure .i want to see the other side of the earth .is the grass fresher on that side (it seems that way to me ) .i cannot bear to leave my friends .but then .how .the multi-million dollar question .if i cant even answer it myself .who can

ok .enough moaning and groaning .i better stop locking myslef up at home .think too much and be dalai lama .byebye

2006-11-05T21:23:00.000+08:00

found some more shops online .haha .so here are they

belts: http://matildasmiles.livejournal.com
clothes: http://marygoaround.livejournal.com

this two places do like specialisation .i got to know about them in my email .haha .so yar .do check them out yar .quite good stuff .

2006-11-04T20:50:00.000+08:00

lovely shopping with momma today .haha .cos i promised to go down to the new house to do clean-ups .this is called blackmail .

haha .i was like a monster let loose out of a cage can .went bonkers in topshop .then at levi's .then at fcuk .then at la senza and x-squared .

total damage:

1. a pair of jeans (levi's) :$139.50
2. a black corset top (topshop) :$40+
3. a black top (topshop) : $49
4. a long sleeved black top (fcuk) : $99
5. 4 bras (la senza) : $220
6. 2 dresses (x-squared) : $285.60

haha .next week it is haji lane for us .i havent been there before .neither has my mom .so it is going to be an adventure for us .haha .we are supposed to stop buying cos of moving house .but does it looks like we care :)

haha .i bought a yellow dress and i swear it makes me look like a banana .not exactly bought. my mom got it first .she paid for it dont like it .give me .haiz .so fickle -minded .haha .and i swear la senza bras are a god-sent item to make a women's boobs look bigger and nicer .haha .i mean heck about triumph and victoria's secret (ok .perhaps vs panties are great) .they are seriously over-priced and arent that comfy .so everyone should invest in la senza bras. i promise you wont regret :) haha .gosh .i bought so many .that i m a VIP there and stuff .haha .lovely .

haha .i shall go eat chocolates .bye people .

2006-11-03T22:16:00.000+08:00

so today was a bad day .bad bad bad day .okay .maybe not

so woke up to cramps .extremely bad ones that even the painkillers nor the pink pills can help to even reduce them .so i went off to school for chinese paper .woohoo .it was relatively okay .considering the fact the compo question was the same as promos .lao shi .you are such a genius .well .the cramps were so bad .i could almost feel tears coming out of my eyes .

the nfor the sake of my mom .i went to town to help her buy something then .i was at wisma .bought her top for her .then went to orchard plaza to buy her hair oil for a friend .geez .then to PS to order the chair from barang barang .i was walkin in cramps .mind you .honestly .i felt like i was going to faint on the streets right there and then.so after i finish 'shopping' .i had absolutely no mood to crystallise my phone .nor i had the money .so i cabbed home .changed and promptly fell onto my bed for 5 hours of sleep .

then woke up to go visit my grandpa again .was there for around and hour .i was still cramping .and there were no chairs cos i let my mom sit down cos she was complaining of aches .so aches + cramps = extreme pain .i had to stand somemore .then .went to eat dinner with my aunts and uncles and cousins .yummy food and good company .haiz .the best combination one could ask for .the minute i sat in the car .i breathed a sigh of relief and comfort .at the food centre .we all saw something that made me ponder .more below.

before i forget .

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TIM WONG AKA. PIG !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

you are seventeen .so quit bullying me can .i promise i will stop suaning you for one month :) haha .hope you had a great day .

so to continue .at the food centre .we were happily eating and talking .then i looked up and saw something that upsetted me so much .i saw a maid .standing .holding a fan .and fanning her young master .while he was eating .the boy was aroung P6 to sec 1 .i guess .and the boy was like treating it as though it was the maid's job to ensure his comfort .wah lao .he was so damn arrogant .everyone was staring and shaking their heads but yet the entire family did not do anything .ok .even so the maid has eaten and stuff .but then .there is no need to go such a thing in public .it is such minor stuff that makes singaporeans lose face .god. even if the boy not embarrased .i still felt embarrased .my dad was like
angry .saying that they dont even treat the maid as a human .haiz. to think such stuff still exist .poor maid .

okay .i m done blogging .i know i m supposed to post pictures. but wait till my body has reverted back to normal k .now is not such a good time .painnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

2006-11-02T21:58:00.000+08:00

so i guess i did not keep my promise of not eating chocs for a day .i sneaked some of the champage chocolates .and i have never eaten such soft and gooey chocolates .thanks cow .timwong .brian gf .vic .zuan .i shall post the pics up soon :)

went back to the new house to clean up AGAIN .geez .i think i suck at mopping .my dad says i am lousy cos i cant seem to squeeze the water from the mop .and so i asked him why we cant bring the vacuum down .he said it was heavy .now who is lousy .blah .i took photos of some of the new furniture .saw post them soon too :)

tomorrow is A level chinese .so horrible .but come to think of it .it will be the last cheena pok paper i will ever have to sit for .amen .haah .i will get A .i promise myself .haha .i hope i will have inspiration for the compo section tomorrow .

my dog is feeling jkfjiewnrncoghrtuigb and keeps poking its nose into my hand so i can scratch it behind the ears jumping onto me .and hugging me with its paws .

bryan says he will celebrate my birthday with me tomorrow with the rest of the class/guys ????? .i m not depending on it to happen .and if it does .please no more chocolate cakes .i rather have a free meal :)

ohh .i m crystallising my phone tomorrow .and it is not with pink crystals .that is just so not me .haha .my mom thinks i have too much money to spend .haha .

okay .so i shall perhaps start speaking and listening to chinese in preparation for tomorrow's paper .byebye

2006-11-01T21:55:00.000+08:00

haha .i m tired and achy and i cannot sleep cos my cousins are ransacking my room .SAVE ME !!!!!

okay .so i had three different kind of chocolate cake today .one was by the dancers .second one was from friends who surprised me at my place .third was my fav cake from awfully chocolate .the one with cherries .yum .so i have three different remaining cakes in my fridge .and i m swearing off chocolate for a ............week ? haha .that is the max i can go .it is like an addiction .and having my girlfriend brian constantly supplying me with chocs .i dont think i will be able to kick this addiction .he gave me royce chocolates .love love love .hmmm .maybe i will swear off for one day .god the champage chocs are so alluring .

haha .and reen .i fixed the puzzle .haha .the colour all the same .and i never look at the no .i did it myself .feel so proud haha .i need to get a frame for it and put in my room :)

so today was such a wonderful day .kicking off with a badass headache .thanks to me losing .then had 2 hrs of technique class .followed by zaki .dance size is decreasing by the day .haiz .SYF steps are nice but hard to get hold of the timing .i think i m a slow learner. i have to do like a million of times before i get the hang of it .lol .then i went off to the new house to help clean up and stuff .went home .and found my darlings waiting outside my current house with a cake and candles and presents .ohhhhhh .thank you guys .i momentarily forgot my aches .haha .ate cake again .this was approximately 3 h after i ate the dance cake . then two hours later i ate the cake my dad got for me .so all the calories i worked hard to clear today .just piled back man .

i will post the piccas up soon .after i searched everywhere for them k :) byebey

2006-11-01T01:23:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME, NELLIE, REEN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

happy birthday to us
happy birthday to us
happy birthday to three of us
happy birthday to us

thanks loads to nellie for providing food. house and drinks
thanks to tim wong for keep making me lose and making me drink
but last of all. thanks to all who celebrated with us

whether i knew you in the past or present .or i dont know you. thank you all for coming to be with us and celebrate with us .have fun with us .sing with us .dance with us .this is from the bottom of my heart .

from this i realise one thing .friendships are built over time. they are meant to last forever .not just one second. shit .i m crying over my laptop .guys .you were the ones who had been with me through thick and thin .and i m thankful for you all .i dont care whether you are leaving .retaining .not in the same school as me .i will still treasure you all hte same .if i see you in sch or in town .i will still say "yo homey/ brother /darling/ lovely /etc." it aches to see people crying .i dont want .cos it makes me want to cry too .

but yet i have fond memories .of each and everyone of you .how you poke fun at me .humour me .play with me .shop with me .so i will never ever forget this day nor you all .it will be kept under lock and key in my heart,

god. this is becoming such an emo post .in preparation for SYF .haha .kidding .but thank you for attending and wishing us .and for letting us know that we are loved and cared for :)

2006-10-28T20:31:00.000+08:00

hello people .yar .i typed a whole lengthy story about yesterday this morning and apparently it disappeared .so i have to re-type again .blah .at this rate i am going to convert to livejournal .irritating blogger .dont let me post .hmph

well .so i had PW meeting in the morning to practise OP .it was a good thing cos we managed to all increase our time without having to change the slides or what so ever .good effort .then i chased my darling group members out of my house so i could bathe and go out .they were swooning over my house plasma TV .geez people .relax

so bathed and rushed out of the house so i perhaps catch the 2.20 movie .alas i did not make it .so i took my time eating pasta .going to HMV to see whether got hana yori dango DVD .but dont have. then went back to watch the movie .DOA .it was pretty interesting and hilarious in the beginning but after a while it got predictable and boring .quite a waste of my money .then met up with tim and phy to pass him the tickets to the party .then we followed phy to Cathay to help her get a job at ben & jerry's .saw celine working there .then we settled down for ice cream and talked about stuff .stupid tim asked what kind of dress code was good vs evil .i told him

" Aiyah .you no need one .you go as yourself can already .since you are so evil :)"

i bet he wanted to kill me .then we talked about who was going .when i told him ._____ was going .he asked a weird question

" Nellie's house got handicapped toilet a not ?"

i was like har .of course not la .then he said .oh well .then _____ cannot have mega orgy already .he was like she there .sure will have one .i was like .aiyah .normal toilet can already what .phy was like got bed also can .see what corrupted minds we have .

then we walked all the way back to taka to see what was there to buy .end of month .time to spend already .haha .on the way there .we talked somemore .apparently tim wants to become a pilot and he thinks all a pilot has to do is to press the button called auto-pilot .can already .haiz .like that can earn $ 20000 .the entire world will be pilots too .stupid .back to shopping .there was nothing to buy .how come .what is happening to our shopping scene .sobs .am i to be reduced to online shopping already .not fair .then we gave up and went starbucks and talked more before i left to join my folks at IKEA

we spent a freaking 3 hours at IKEA .and our bill came up to 700 plus for some wood planks and other rubbish .my dad almost had heart attack there and then .he is still grumbling .went home and died on my bed .it was like those days i like .just chilling with friends .

well .my grandpa was warded yesterday on top of some other family probs .and we woke up to rush down to the hospital .scared the shit out of my mom .haha .you should see the entire clan in our most unglam attire .slippers .fugly shirts we swore never to wear out .glasses .digusting hair .haha .interesting sight .but not sure what is wrong with my ah gong yet .my mom is like calling the family doctor to look in on him cos not in the right hospital .then might not be able to come in .haiz

ok .i am going back to the TV and trying to see whether i can order the papasan chair online .for the sake of my mom .who is too harassed to do such stuff .cos there is like a 50% discount off .toodles

P.S i was too naive .the rampage of sms is back .help me people .to think of a way to stop it .

2006-10-26T13:32:00.000+08:00

sorry people for not blogging for the past few days was busy watching videos .thanks to david .haha .well quick summary

tuesday:
a belated Selamant Hari Raya Puasa to all my muslim friends .haha .the famil went vivo city on that day .having fun .ate .and stuff .it is giant .i need to go back there soon .yippeeee .

wednesday:
OP dry run .a disaster .i was too soft and everything andi could not hit the time .guess i was too nervous .haiz .then had 2h of maths lect. before i went home to continue my videos .

today:
salck day got back results and some bad news for others .reality check told me i neeed to catch up during theh olz .if not i am sure screwed next year .70 plus points lei .cmon you can do it .hopefully .seeing what a busy year it will be . i cant believe i am going to be J2 next year .so surreal .well went for macs breakfast with the girls and we ate so much la .dinie and i were arguing how to eat the scrambled eggs .cos she eats with salt and pepper while i eat with ketchup .well we just came to the conclusion that i m american while she is british :)

well .it is going to be a hectic time and i still cannot decide whether i want to go for the class chalet .how ???? and i still want more shows .i want to watch

1. step up
2. material girls
3. DOA
4. more hana yori dango

i want to meet a rich boy !!!!!!!!!

ok .i m being lame .so toodles .it is back to hana yori dango .immerse myself in the world of jap shows.

P.S did i mention the guy never msg me anymore (YIPPPPEEEEE !!!!!)

2006-10-23T17:49:00.000+08:00

look what my mummy bought yesterday .ohhlalala .i sure kope to carry .but the handles are quite painful when you carry it after sometime

whoooo .PW was alright .but i did so much editing till i wanted to die .animation + bulleting + editing .my butt aches coupled with the fact of carrying my laptop .haha .but it was fun .and thanks to david for letting me watch the show .it is damn nice .you just got me addicted again to watching shows .hehe .tomorrow hari raya .confirm stay at home with my videos :)

ok going to rest now .toodles

2006-10-22T20:47:00.000+08:00

as promised :)

you guys can contact me @ 98289869

and those who said you are coming get your tickets from me .F-O-F .i will pass it to someone :)

lovely day spent alone in town with zero cash .wander from place to place before tuition .with my fugly fringe irritating me

i need to do something with my fringe .cos it is long enough to cover my eyes yet still not enough to sweep to the side .i need my sleep .but there is PW tomorrow .and i have to drag my lappie to potong pasir (where shaun's house is located).thanks har .so that is my lovely monday gone .haiz .back to my dvd again .byebye :)

2006-10-21T21:56:00.000+08:00

THE UNFORGETTABLE TRIP DOWNTOWN :)

so the entire family decided to head out for some dinner .and then we went geylang .i swear i should have brought my cammie along .so memorable

at first we went geylang to buy lights for the new house .yar .ohhh .my light is so nice .haha .the toilet light is also very nice .every light is nice .haha .and the auntie is so nice she gave my light a big fat giant discount

actual price =$230
after discount =$170

60 bucks off .well .i mean everytime we move we will go look for her for the lights .she earns money from us every 5 years .so must be nice what .haha

then after which my dad decided to give my brother a little education by bringing us all to the famous red light district of spore .we walked the entire stretch and i was damn shocked la .

old men + young women
china woman wearing ultra revealing clothes
handphones shops and sexshops all over the place
hotels.motels
bhangras flooding the place
the most extreme words and touches

ewwwww .and here was what i told my dad and brother

"please har .see no evil .hear no evil"

my mom was even more hilarious .

"you all want har .please chose those with a nicer figure and face one k"

i was laughing .then it was time to head home .i wished i brought my cammie to take piccas and show you guys .it would be so cool .hhaha .the other side of singpaore .i will be posting the details of the party soon .i promise .been real busy .so sorry folks .byeeby

2006-10-21T18:19:00.000+08:00

hello all you silly people .

the details to the birthday thing is all on nellie blog .which can be found in my links .

thank you all in advance if you want to attend .there is a dress code .please adhere to it strictly .though i dont think i will .hhaa

ok .today was a lovely day with me waking up ultra early for tuition

sorry cow for not being able to accompany you to vivo city .next week i promise to make time for you

november hurry come so i can get more discounts and shop

i need panadol .ok byebye

2006-10-20T21:08:00.000+08:00

the impossibility for me

i knew it was long over
when i saw you walk away from me
that familiar back
that particular scent
your favourite brands
it hurts
we never really started
but being close was good enough
now i know that
i can never get you back
the minute you looked in the other direction
how to reiterate
how to re-build
how to re-mend
all hows but no solutions

casuse i m all out of love

2006-10-19T22:35:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8uaVXmWEN-c

MUST WATCH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

horrrible .the girl has literally no bones and she is so damn strong .sobs .i dream to be like her

2006-10-19T21:31:00.000+08:00

I AM A WHINY BITCH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

not exactly la. i just get easily pissed and i will start bitching endlessly .haha .well today was yet another long and boring day .those "you-go-school-eat-slack-sleep-play-listen-but-nothing-goes-in" days .haha .well the only possible interesting thing is PE .

PE was fun .but it was like painful for me .cos of the injuries i got yesterday .but i forced myself to play .despite being whacked by sticks and the ball .resulting in two more bruises .and i could feel my blister spiltting open again .haha .then uncle chua could take it no more .and stop PE half-way .he said

"I want to end the lesson with the same amount of people"

hilarious .well he could not say it any better .we were all quite battered considering the way we played .so a lesson to be learnt. never play with my class unless you are extremely interested and keen to obtain injuries :)

well .after PE .went to examine my injuries .total count .5 bruises .one bleeding blister .one immature blister and a weird knee over the past two days .blah .it is pain lol .i had to wash the digusting blister and it stung .then i walked barefooted like yesterday to the cafe .it was just awful .sobs .they are all coming back with a venegance

then the remaining lessons were spent in a daze except for GP review lecture which was quite hilarious .i rather enjoyed it .first time hearing me enjoying a lecture har .well .the first half was rather boring .but then the second half .mr leong was the lecturer and boy was it interesting .this was what he called us .

"you little shits"

we were a little shocked but amused la .haha .and he was so funny .and sarcastic. he has this ability to make us look insignificant and smaller .but yet keep us awake and interested .i dont mind him as my GP tutor sia :)

well .then headed to j8 to wait for mommy .i waited from 4-5.30 .before she came and then we went to find shoes for her cos she was fed up with the pair she was wearing .well it was a futile effort .so we headed to wash our hair .her treat .my hair feels nice now .haha .then she went ot see the eye doctor and i waited again .then .we went for dinner and head home .

just finish printing the 4 copies of WR .total no. of pages 96 .amen .haha .i have to bring it to binding tomorrow .so it means i will not be going to school .deposit it in sch and i will be leaving after that .hehe .and then go home sleep again :) the best man .lovely .

and remind me never ever to volunteer my laptop again .it is so damn heavy .that i almost died carrying it all around the school .almost resorted to dragging my bag again .this is why i hate carrying the crumpler .i stuff many things inside and it ends up damn heavy .well. it is a lesson to be learnt .i can be sure of backaches tomorrow .definitely .

oh well .i need to go of a lready .so toodles people

2006-10-18T21:18:00.000+08:00

loolala loolala loola loola leh. haha .seriously mentally unsound .i am totally shagged .and guess what .the blister on my feet burst during dance .of all times it must burst during dance. and we were doing SYF steps .andi was limping all the way .the steps are hard but nice .with loads of accents .dont think i will be able to execute the steps well. and to think that i will be missing at least two weeks of dance .kill me .shitass .

there was skirt check today .i was pissed .i pulled my skirt down all the way to my knees .and the stupid teacher still said i fail .the five of us (auntie .darylyn .mellie .din) went to find out teachers to help us measure .even ms de silva said our lengths were okay .but there was nothing mr lim could do .till mrs lim came and helped us out by saying that me .mel and din were okay .but auntie and darylyn could not escape and had to upick their skirts .and they hid the whole day .well i felt sorry for them and angry la .i mean cmon la .next year girls are sure to make their skirts shorter you think people come to your sch cos it is cool .it is also because the uniform is nicer .bloody hell

then lunched with cheryl .we went to eat pasta .ice cream .looked around .and we went to barang barang to look at the chair i getting for my room .haha .cheryl promptly sat in the chair and almost fell asleep .it is really damn comfy .and that poor girl had to unpick her skirt cos the choir teacher caught her and wini even though they passed in the morning (i did not get caught again cos i was walking around the entire day with a half unzipped skirt) .haha .

went back for dance. and enter the dance studio to see amanda crying .cos the choir teacher caught her too .when she was walking in the cafe .apparently .the sch planted teachers all over to catch us .it is just so despicable .and thus the cursing rampage started .with veeks in the lead .wah lao .haha .thus never anger the dancers .hehe

and when we were going home .we saw rats in the sch .outside the studio at the grass patch .we were all screaming .and stuff .cos it was huge .haha .hope ms tan has informed the sch .ewww .rats .kill me

haha .i need to plaster my blister and pack the lappie into my bag for sch tomorrow .and did i mention .mom has given me permission to pon on friday .thus i need not go sch for 5 days .muahahahhaah .i love it .i am sick of sch actualy .i go class sit down .listen whatever the teacher says and then forget .retarded .my entire life in sch now is eat and sleep .nice .ok .byebye

2006-10-16T19:25:00.000+08:00

so it seems like i could not escape from the evil arms of the haze .finally succumbing to respiratory problems .i have a slight fever and a blocked nose .went to see the doctor .who prescribed me my usual dosage of flu pills and nose spray .and this sucks cos i feel terrible .the fever is not subsiding .how i hate the way the haze is controlling our lives

and so i went home early .thus forgetting to tell mr fang and mr lim cos i was like totally dazed and stuff .and then now mommy have to write a letter to mr lim .haiyo .damn ma fan

oh and did i mention that i m not getting a phone anymore .rather i getting cash .which is what i prefer :) haha .more shopping for me asap .saturday .girls day out .yipppeeeee !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-10-15T00:05:00.000+08:00

PARTY UPDATES (LAST EDITION) !!!!!!!!!!!

everything will be kept the same but the ticket price is back to 5 bucks and it is at nellie house .cos it is the only house that is big enough .no worries bout noise level .

and now i m conversing with this guy by sms .and i have absolutely no idea who he is .i never even seen his face .so weird

and so i m still as indecisive over my new phone .i hate moments like this .cos i want the best of both worlds .arrgh .how people how .it is either chocolate or cheryl's phone .HOW !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-10-13T21:37:00.000+08:00

look at what din got for me

haha .thanks dear for it .it cheered me up :) haha .with friends like that .life is slightly better .

haha .tomorrow open house. all stc juniors please come down to SA to look look see see .esp the dancers .haha .you guys need loads of motivation to perform well at next year SYF .haha .dance is performing at 12.15 and 3.15 pm in the hall .come and watch k

P.S can the stomach be salonpased ???

2006-10-13T20:54:00.000+08:00

ok .so blogger decided to pms on me yesterday .just when i had so many things to blog about

yesterday:
it was such a tiring day esp since i was so tired and achy from dance .but nonetheless .i went about my life in a daze .haha .and stupid uncle chua just did not let me skip PE .so poor me had to play soccer .on the new field .i was dying there la .and wei xuan .the drama mama .over drama and up with a swollen butt .but it was funn .we were laughing so much .with the exception of me screaming whenever i missed a goal .after PE was doomsday .got back results as shown below .yar .then had dance .saw something and heard something i did not wish to see .hah .so yar .but any way congrats to you two and all the best .but yet i am still angry .well .i shall keep my comments to myself .i blurted everythign to nellie and cheryl though .haha .oops .well and they agree with me .now you see why they can relate to me .i just love them to bits and pieces

today:
2h of PW lecture .damn tiring la. was sleeping the whole time .cos my body could not take it .and dinie and david was talking about super hilarious stuff .after which .had break .and then took back chem paper .what can i say .the results totally reflected my effort :) then had dance before that was wanderign about school .with cheryl then nellie .and we were talking crap again .haha .dance. the same old things .i just dont understand .cant you people just like live in harmony .and stop gossiping about people behind their backs .why cant you people just accept each other opinion .and make the approriate changes .does it please you all that everything is going topsy turvy .arrgh .whatever i ranted above .was my own personal opinion k .yar

so now .my long awaited results

Promo grades:
GP: 45/100 (E)
Maths: 64/100 (B)
Bio: 39/100 (U)
Chem: 41/100 (S)
MT: 74/100 (A)

Overall grades:
GP: ?
Maths: B
Bio: U
Chem: E
MT: A

lovely har .i am safe .so yar .J2 .here i come .i can finally heave a sigh of relief .haha .and stupid bryan somehow managed to get the same points as me .haha .and dinie should be safe too .lalala .the people i like are going to stay .next year should be nicer :)

people .if you guys want the tickets please tell me asap .haha .k .remember the more the merrier .

ohhhhhhh .daddy says he is going to get me a new phone .lg chocolate or any samsung phone .enlighten me all you wise folks .practicality or appearance .haiz .

2006-10-11T20:18:00.000+08:00

PARTAEY UPDATES !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha .there are new information put up here .this is the confirmed one already :)

Halloween Party

Date : 31 october
Location : Aloha Changi resort
Ticket price : $7
Time starts :6pm
Time ends : none

FREE flow of food and beer
hard liquor :tequila and vodka are sold at $4 per shot

so people if you guys want tickets .contact us k

Chun Lei : vernisa88@hotmail.com (email)
98289869 (hp)
tag on my blog
Nellie : some.delicious@gmail.com (email)
97279049 (hp)
sugarflamza.diaryland.com (blog)

please tell us asap .so we can start making plans :)

2006-10-11T19:57:00.000+08:00

i m tired .the aches in my body are like enrooted into my bones .well .it is just the consequence of dance .

well today was pretty much okay .but then it really did drain me of my energy .and i did not get to eat ben and jerry's ice cream .haiz .i did not eat anything the whole day .it is my own fault i guess .

well in the morn we had amazing race .actually it was quite fun .and the whole class was damn united despite lack in manpower .we were like pushing each other .cheating .pouncing onto the house captains for cluess .and thanks to our wide resources .we came in first for our house .but in the end we lost overall as we took a longer time to finish the ice cream .well heck la .50 bucks of cash .and lesser people means more money for me :) haah .but it was really worth it i guess

then afternoon .we had dance . i totally forgotten how many eights we accomplished .but i am just damn tired .continuously dancing .haiz. it was even more draining to have to put up with some stuff .i m sick of it .i thought you people were my friends .but ha . was i wrong. what is the use of saying all this now lei .when it is all happening .lei .you are stupid girl .you erally are .i thought i was studying so hard for the sake of dance. but now i think that should i quit .and yar .i have decided to not cheorograph next year .there is no point .really .there issnt .

well. brought home the schedule for dance for my parents .and my mom wants me to end two weeks earlier .why cant she understand how important that period of time is .two weeks .i will miss so much . i dont want to miss my syf chance .i dont want. i know i need time for rest after the op .but then the doctor says it is okay .why cant she trust me .why cant she trust the doctor .being kiasu is not going to help .and it does not help in my recovery if i am going to be worrying about dance.

tomorrow is doomsday .getting back results. well. what can i say .i tried my best .but then maybe it is not enough .i dont know .well .ms ye never scold me .so i guess .it is not too bad .hopefully .if i fail my maths .i will just blame myself .i just want to blame myself. so others wont blame me .i need no ostracization .nelly .cheryl .i need you guys really badly .i cant take it anymore .i thought it was all over .but how stupid i was .how stupid i was

on a brighter note .mrs chia mentioned something about us having dance exchange progrmme next year .in melbourne .in june .well. at least i have something to look forward to next year .lovely .haha. i wanna go .it just took away my unhappiness for a short period of time :)

guess .i should go find a hole .and burrow myself to escape from reality .so yar .toodles people and check the next post for party updates :)

2006-10-10T13:49:00.000+08:00

this is to one of the funniest girl i just made

HAPPY 17TH BIRHTDAY JIALYNN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hope you will enjoy your day and we will go out soon .iswear :) come for my chalet k love you

see you have one entire post to yourself .front page man :)

2006-10-09T18:45:00.000+08:00

IMPORTANT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hey you folks out there .if i know you and you know me .please take note of the following .

me and nellie twinnie are having a PARTY !!!!!!!!!!

it is to be a halloween cum chalet cum birthday party .haha .

venue :to be confirmed
date :31-1 november
time :anytime
ticket charge :$5

now 5 bucks is a cheap price you guys will be paying for the fun and excitement of the night .okay

so all interested please tag me .or send me an email at vernisa88@hotmail.com .please tell me asap as we need to confirm the no of people coming and set out budget .thank you .i will be sending emails too .so check your inbox .k

so you think you can dance is at 8.30 .and i cant wait .and oh yar .did i tell you .that i am freaking out about my impending doom when i get back my results .so yar .cos i know that it is going to be horrible :(

2006-10-08T22:44:00.000+08:00

i hate using the net at night .it is so slow .arrgh .

ok .so yar .today after service we went with daddy to pay the closet's money .haha .i am getting a nine foot wardrobe .complete with mirrors .sliding doors .drawers .baskets .it is huge .it has 5/6 panels for me to put my clothes .haha .gosh . i cant wait for our new house to be completed .i mean we designed the entire thing ourself .each detail .each individual room has it own unique characteristic .haah .so lovely

and i am starting on a teeny weeny project myself again .it is to be part of my new room .it is going to take time :)

2006-10-08T10:27:00.000+08:00

i want to change to gmail cos hotmail is starting to be such a bitch. but i cannot think a new mail name that is not kinky .nor corny .nor stupid .

and should i get a new fred perry bag .the smaller one .enlightened me oh wise peopl :)

2006-10-07T23:14:00.000+08:00

lalalalalalala .i m high .extremely .we just had like a major family meeting for my uncle's wedding .it just ended .and i so have to blog about this .ok .i am to be like the person in charge of ushering guests to their tables .and it is going to be so cool .and i have to get two dresses .though i just plan to wear my f21 dress in the morning and my prom dress in the evening .haha .i just dont feel like going out shopping in this weather anymore .and just blame me for not getting anything before the fall/winter season . i feel stupid .ok so it is going to be the major event of the year la .besides chinese new year .well .my ah gong house was over flooded with people .more than 50 people was there .i have a lot of cousins and there was the bride's side .the usually huge terrace house suddenly felt so cramped .my ah ma went crazy cooking .haha so here is the over draft of the wedding

morning
church service .i cant remember the church but they are catholics so yar .wooooo .haha .it is to be grand grand grand

afternoon
reception + tea ceremony .where .not the church nor my new house nor my ah gong's house .it is to be at asian civilisations museum .in case you ding dongs dont know where it is .it is located next to the singapore river and victoria theatre .lalalala .unique har .gosh .haha .see that is why i am excited

night
dinner .at where .it is at swissotel .not merchant's court .but at WESTIN .yar people .envy moi .i m ushering at the westin with a fabulous dinner menu .and yummy food and good company .hahaa .now you can see why i am high already

i get to get new shoes .and i get to eat good food .and even get hongbao for my services .haiz .well .it is like the first wedding in the family after my cousin got married a couple of years ago .so everyone is super hyped up .and stuff. but the only thing i m not going to like is how my aunts are going to interrogate me like a criminal about my life in school .and the presence of all male cousins .it is the exact same scenario like today .except i came late .due to shopping .i actually continued shopping with no results .haiz .my mom dumped all the stuff with me and i had to cab down .arrgh .haha .but at least no interrogation .haha .cant wait till december .lalalalla .and yar after the sushi dinner .i was forced to eat by my ah ma .who was talking to me in dialect and piling my plate .i am ultra bloated now .i definitely gained back the pounds i lost during dance

2006-10-07T19:41:00.000+08:00

i m totally shagged .3.5h of dance + full day shopping is damn tiring .my whole body aches

dance was alright .but it was tired and squishy .cos due to the haze .we all decided to stay inside the studio.and the size of the studio is horredously small so imagine 20 peopl dancing inside .well .we learned so many counts today till i am almost died .i had absolutely no stamina to dance after 2 hours .gosh .then i went home to rest before going out

bathed and changed .put on a huge layer of cream before leaving the house .the haze hit my face with full force .it stinks .i regretted washing my hair .well .and the stupid bus was so effing hot that i felt like i was in a sauna .my mom and i hurrily escaped into the confines of the malls and took comfort in the air con and cleaner air .i am damn pissed. i walked for 4 hours straight .and all i got was a topshop patent mary janes .slap me .all the stuff i wanted .were either

1. no more
2. too damn bloody expensive (99 bucks for a top from fcuk ???? me )
3. no size
4. or all winter wear

now why cant singapore have four seasons and allow me to wear coats .i only took comfort in the fact that my mom bought me a coat which i can bring when i leave to go overseas .and my mom was high .she bought so many stuff till i was so jealous .arrgh .why why why !!!!!! even the birks i wanted no size . wah lao .this was the most disastrous shopping trip ever .

then we went for sushi .the haze is killing my throat and respiratory system .and my precious hair have to be washed many many times .arrgh .damn the haze .PSI says 126 and i regret staying so high up cos the haze is even worse .gosh .air con comfort .byebye .i need to wash my hair again .oh yar .i am at my grand parents place discussing a major event at the end of the year .will post about it later .for now .it is toodles .i need to escape !!!!!!!!!

THANK YOUS !!!!!!

2006-10-06T16:01:00.000+08:00

this is in no particular order .and so I, leilei, wouldl ike to thank the following people for the support they have given me during this promo period :)

1. daddy and mommy
thanks so much .for all the tonics and chicken essence .and encouraging words .depsite dad keep asking me to find a nice spot near the longkang soon .and that if i retain .they dont care and let me plan out my retirement plans for next year .well .and reading the bible to me .to keep me calm .and making sure i sleep before you guys .i honestly do sleep very late

2. cow
you are really the one who kept me going .we both wont get retained i swear .and i love you still .and thanks for the bible verses and words .and talking to me when i am breaking down .i will always be there for you like how you were always here for me .thanks so much and lets go out soon !!!!

3. nellie twinnie
now without you .i would have failed maths already .without you i would be feeling stupid .without you .there is no twin to celebrate my birhtday with me .thanks for sharing all my crap and encouraging me in the mornings .haha .i cant wait for our birthdays .26 more days :)

4. bryan chan
haha.the lengthy convos we always have where we start arguing about who is going to retain .and about the scores .and fyi .i m no mugger .unlike you :P .thanks for saying loads of nonsensical stuff about people and promos .you are really one of the people in class i can hang out with .seriously .despite all the gossip . lets continue our friendship .and not see each other in 07S20 but in 06S20 k :)

5. jialynn
not much to say about you. but thanks for chatting with me online and saying stuff that makes me smile and trust you as much .well .a few more days till you come back .and i am awaiting your presence so we can go out together yar .with cheryl :)

6. F-O-F
thanks for all your threats and peace offerings and incentives to make me study and so i can promote .thanks for your gestures .i appreciate it loads .i cant say anymore thank you .but really .i am glad that i have found friends in you guys and thanks for being my cheerleaders

7. dancers
i think it is only for the fact of dancing with you guys again next year that kept me going .though now we are waiting for the verdict to be out .lets make open house a success k.and end this year on a right note .i really love you guys so much .that it is going to hurt to leave next year .hopefully i dont .and veeks i m still not jealous bout you ending a day earlier :) and i dont really look forward to tomorrow too .haha .i want to sleep !!!!!!

8. GOD
thank you LORD .for always ensuring me with your presence .helping me go through each paper with ease and clarity .for keeping me calm .smoothing me to sleep each night .it is like i could feel you .though it is still a long journey ahead. but thanks so much .cos only wiht your presence and shelter .did i feel safe and at peace with myself

9.my tuition mates
yihui .sharon .joy. yan qing .daphne .for so call passing me your luck .haha .
jenna and adora for helping me understand what was going on during tuition .
linus for reassuring me .that with mr lam sure can get A like he did .well linus .i not very sure about that .but maybe i can get a better grade :)

10. my tutors
mr lam and mr khor for making tuition so hilarious and fun to be in .i understand much better :)

11. gigi
for walking with me at night to think things out .and never whine despite you hating exercise . i bet you lost weight :)

12 weiwei and ah qi
my true friends .different class .but still united though i rarely see you guys already but then the fact that we can still wish each other 'all the best' and never 'good luck' during promos tells me that we can never forget about each other yar .we must visit STC soon !!!!!!!

and many many more .if i left your name out .so sorry .once again .thanks so much !!!!!!!!!!!!!

END OF PROMOS !!!!!!

2006-10-06T15:55:00.000+08:00

wooohooooo .finally .i felt like something in my body disappear after i finished my last sentence .like a stone has just been lifted .gosh that feeling is amazing .though i have no actual confidence for two subs .i am still feeling normal .

eecorns was alright .it was normal .and thanks so much to ms choo for giving us the sample question . it really did save my ass from being burnt .bow three times to her .haha .i promise ms choo .i will be there for all of you eecorns tutorials and lectures unless it starts and ends ultra late :)

i have my mani and pedi done .tomorrow is shopping with mommy .online shopping right now .ASOS is beckoning me with open arms .lovely .now this is what life should be .i have finally got my life back . and yes .read the above post for thank yous :)

2006-10-05T17:32:00.000+08:00

ok .so maths was not so bad .but i still

1. did not get to finish the paper
2. almost had a panic attack
3. must have made ten thousands of mistakes

and mr tan if you are reading this .dont slaughter us too badly k .i m depending on maths a lot .and so tomorrow is eecorns .but i dont feel like studying for it cos it is really a waste of time and i will still not do well .and i missed like how many lectures .but then since i chose this subject .i should at least put some effort into studying for it right ??????? ohwells .last paper tomorrow .i have promised some pampering time for myself the next few days before we get back our results and before dance invades my life .so yar .i guess i will just wish myself luck and keep myself calm and stop crying and stop breaking down like during promos and before promos for no reasons at times .gosh .i want to thank many people who have helped me during this time .but i will do it tomorrow and dedicate one entire post to you guys for helping me endure this period .

2006-10-03T12:00:00.000+08:00

well .what can i say about today ,well it is just like common test and bio .except i blanked out in the middle of the exam .wow .congratulations to me .that goes my chances of promoting .i can just see it flying to a far far place .screw this shit la .i never ever felt so bad/worse/down/shitty/fucked up in my life .i put in my 100 % into studying for it .i vomitted my guts out and i am still doing so badly .what is the point of me taking exams .i think i should find a seat at the river soon .a note to the school .if you guys want to kill us .please say .i am extremely willing to offer my head to you all .just dont put me through all the torture then kill me .is this my fate .gosh .fuck the school .fuck the teachers la .i think that getting a S for chemistry is not even possible .maths is next .i am going to work my ass off for this paper .if it is still bad. well .i have no comments .but to say that it is my own fault for not working hard enough .it is all my fault that i never study .it is my fault that i blanked out

on a lighter note of stuff .my thumb is not swollen anymore so i took off the bandage .it just hurts sometimes when i move it .well .at least that is a piece of good news to me .

2006-10-02T19:31:00.000+08:00

i felt like i just under went a battle .it am tired .weary .achy and extremely dead .i totally screw bio up .i have no idea what i was writing like half the time .and i will be extremely thankful i can even get a S .gosh i need a miracle now .i am damn anxious for chemistry .i cant seem to remember all my chemical equations .i want to cry already .this is a mental and physical torture .God save me from this mess i have created for myself .